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So I've become boring. Really, really mind-explodingly boring. Most days I drag myself home from work to collapse on the couch, eat, then go back to the couch and slip into a food coma until bed. This kind of schedule makes me wonder why I'm so tired in the mornings. It's not like I work-out or anything, oh no, no energy for that. It's not that I don't get invited out (although there's a sparse amount of people left), it's just that when I do actually hang out with people, I'm so exceptionally dull that it's really just painful for both of us. My brain has become numb to emotion (unless a headache is an emotion) and I have nothing to talk about, nor do I want to laugh or have fun or be merry like a teenager should be. No. I want to sleep. When I'm with someone I resent them because they mean that I'm not sleeping. Watching a movie is okay because that requires nothing on my part, but anything conversational is completely beyond my grasp.
I hate my job so much. I almost start to cry everyday, usually after lunch when I swore that I would work out but I can't because I'm so tired and its' raining and I just want to DIE. Not like they would notice...maybe in three hours, when they need me to copy ONE PIECE OF PAPER.
I hate my life right now.
I just want to leave, just GET OUT of here and not work anymore and reeducate myself in being a human being.
Two weeks and six days...
I hate my job so much. I almost start to cry everyday, usually after lunch when I swore that I would work out but I can't because I'm so tired and its' raining and I just want to DIE. Not like they would notice...maybe in three hours, when they need me to copy ONE PIECE OF PAPER.
I hate my life right now.
I just want to leave, just GET OUT of here and not work anymore and reeducate myself in being a human being.
Two weeks and six days...