Insecurities were justified.
So I read part of my last journal entry. I was afraid that my husband was going to leave me. Well, it was a valid fear. John and I split up in September of last year. We were divorced effective March 30. Sucks. Long story short, he cheated on me. He didnt sleep with this tramp until after we had split up, but he was telling her that he was in love with her. He now lives with her, Eileen lives with me... He doesnt pay anything for her living expenses. I recently told him everything that has been on my mind for the past 7 months. He will likely never speak to me again because of it. That was not my intent. I just wanted to get everything off my chest. Deep down, I know I still love him... at least a little. But he has become such a douche over the past 7 months that I know that he and I will never be together again. I fear that he will never grow up and be the man that he needs to be for his daughter.
Being a single mom is hard, but my friends have been so supportive. I just wish John would be too. Ah well...
Being a single mom is hard, but my friends have been so supportive. I just wish John would be too. Ah well...