Yeah... Im Gonna Be A Mommy.
I have had so much on my mind for the past month. I went to Urgent Care to have them take a look at my foot... and my entire existance changed in an instant. My life went from me doing what I want and living for me to restricting my diet and taking it easy and saving money for the wellbeing of someone I dont even know yet. Its funny how fast the phrase "Youre definately pregnant" changes your life. It really is hard to believe that in a mere 7 months, I will have a family. I will have a son or a daughter who is completely dependant on me and looks to me for their every need. Thats not to say that it is unwelcome. Its just unexpected... and a little overwhealming.
Last night, John and I had a talk that was far overdue. We finally talked about our child... I know we should have talked about it sooner, but I didnt know exactly what to say about it. I didnt know where to begin. All I know is that I am more scared about this than I have ever been scared about anything before. But John made me feel better. He knew exactly what to say to make me feel better and less apprehensive. John and I are starting a family together. He reassured me that he is going to be there with me through it all. I already knew that, but it is good to hear that. I know I am not going to be doing this alone.
And all of my friends have been so supportive of me so far. I know that Jeff is excited because he is going to get to be "Uncle Jeffy" and he gets to spoil the hell out of my baby. He was already planning my child's first birthday party. Its good to have so many people who are excited for me and are rooting me on. I called Laura one day and she was telling her coworkers how she was going to be an aunt. That made me smile. All I know is that my child is going to be surrounded with happiness and with people who love him or her.
In a coulple of months I should know if the baby is a boy or a girl. I dont really know what I am rooting for. All I know for sure is that I want my baby to be healthy and happy.
I do want to thank all of my friends for being supportive of me... and just being there for me when I need someone to talk to. It does mean a lot to me.
Last night, John and I had a talk that was far overdue. We finally talked about our child... I know we should have talked about it sooner, but I didnt know exactly what to say about it. I didnt know where to begin. All I know is that I am more scared about this than I have ever been scared about anything before. But John made me feel better. He knew exactly what to say to make me feel better and less apprehensive. John and I are starting a family together. He reassured me that he is going to be there with me through it all. I already knew that, but it is good to hear that. I know I am not going to be doing this alone.
And all of my friends have been so supportive of me so far. I know that Jeff is excited because he is going to get to be "Uncle Jeffy" and he gets to spoil the hell out of my baby. He was already planning my child's first birthday party. Its good to have so many people who are excited for me and are rooting me on. I called Laura one day and she was telling her coworkers how she was going to be an aunt. That made me smile. All I know is that my child is going to be surrounded with happiness and with people who love him or her.
In a coulple of months I should know if the baby is a boy or a girl. I dont really know what I am rooting for. All I know for sure is that I want my baby to be healthy and happy.
I do want to thank all of my friends for being supportive of me... and just being there for me when I need someone to talk to. It does mean a lot to me.