Wow its an actual update
Well i feel its time to come bak and break the silence on here. its been quite a while since i last updated this and things are deff different then they were at the last update. first off is skool inches ever closer to being done with. im happy and sad about that. but whatever shit has to end so let it. next thing is i am not the same person that updated lsat month. i know and u guys prob realized i am and have been changing who i am. im not that scared kid i once was and im not even the person i was a month ago. i think this is comming about because i am 18 and its time that i finally ditch all the shit of the past and move on. and to all those that say someone is changing me no i choose to change i dont change because i am told to do so. now anyway on to possibly the main point of this entry.
i want to start it with one idea. relationships are a bitch. they are fucking hard as hell to maintain and at times dont seem worth all the trouble. i seriously am not too sure what is really going on right now as things seem to contrdict themselves and i am starting to feel i am being fed what i want to hear. well i aint taking this shit no more. enough of being nice and not fighting. if a fight is what it takes to clear everything up then a fight it will be. im tired of feeling used and misled. all i want to know is the truth no matter what it may be. i want to finally kill this feeling of im wasting my time right now cause i cant afford to do that and right now im starting to feel i am.
well anyway other then the few annoying problems, life is going pretty well. i find i have much more freedom then i used to and things arnt as stressfull as they once were. i feel though i can dump some more stress but it may not be pretty to do so but i feel it is worth it so im gonna throw caution into the wind and tackle the situation instead of letting it idle by growing in strength. well im out for now later.
oh and happy mothers day to all those moms out there though its just a marketing ploy by companies since there are no holidays in may.
i want to start it with one idea. relationships are a bitch. they are fucking hard as hell to maintain and at times dont seem worth all the trouble. i seriously am not too sure what is really going on right now as things seem to contrdict themselves and i am starting to feel i am being fed what i want to hear. well i aint taking this shit no more. enough of being nice and not fighting. if a fight is what it takes to clear everything up then a fight it will be. im tired of feeling used and misled. all i want to know is the truth no matter what it may be. i want to finally kill this feeling of im wasting my time right now cause i cant afford to do that and right now im starting to feel i am.
well anyway other then the few annoying problems, life is going pretty well. i find i have much more freedom then i used to and things arnt as stressfull as they once were. i feel though i can dump some more stress but it may not be pretty to do so but i feel it is worth it so im gonna throw caution into the wind and tackle the situation instead of letting it idle by growing in strength. well im out for now later.
oh and happy mothers day to all those moms out there though its just a marketing ploy by companies since there are no holidays in may.