He Came to Me in a Dream
Second John came to me last night. I'm sorry I've taken all day to post about it. I've had all day an nothing else to do but it's my next to last day before I start class. So I'm procrastinating everything. I've barely written more than one paragraph today. Maybe it's for the best.
Anyway, on to the Visitation:
I opened my eyes and I was in our sun lit meadow with the babbling brook. I could hear it running quietly. I heard the quiet roar of the waterfall I knew to be just over at the far end of the meadow. I smelled him in the air. I turned around and saw him looking a little haggard. I don't know how to describe it. It's like he didn't have more than an hour or two of sleep in days. But it was more than looking tired. He look worn down.
"Glad you could make it."
"What's wrong, you look horrible."
"I've been busy."
"You're not taking a chapter out of my book and causing yourself pain."
"It's... I"ve been... It's hard to explain. I'm alright though."
"Ok... But you better not be lying."
"I'd never lie to you. Conceal. Spin. Lead you to believe something. But I'd never lie to you."
"Better not or I'll stop talking to you."
*raises an eye brow* "Really?"
"You're not that lucky." *smile*
"So... I'm here for a reason."
"Never a dull moment."
"You should give some serious thought to taking a semester off."
"A semester off, why?"
"You have a book to finish."
"Yeah, but can't I do both school and the book."
"It would be too much for you to handle."
"You're awfully sure of yourself. Maybe I would surprise you!"
"But you couldn't. I already know everything that's going to happen. To me, we've already had every conversation we're ever going to have done and over with. Time is not linear to me. As far as you'd be concerned every conversation that we've had and will have, I had all in the same instant of time."
"But you said I had free will. So I could change what happens. So maybe there would have to be new conversations."
"And the moment you make that decision I have all the conversations over again in the same instant. I'll save you the trouble. This argument goes around in circles because you don't see time like I do."
"Unfair."
"Very. But that's how it is. So choose, book or school, but not both."
"I'm not liking you very much right now."
*He's standing right in front of me all of the sudden* "Yes, but you still love me."
"I do. But it hurts less each time. And I'm so emotionally all over the place I'm not falling for you hard, like I normally do."
"So, go talk to your mom. She'll be helpful in you making your decision."
"You're awful bossy all the sudden, what's wrong?"
"It's just... you can't understand. It's beyond you. I'm sorry to sound so callous."
"...Fine. I'll trust you. I'll see what she has to say and then decide."
"Ok, time to go." *hugs and sweet kiss*
"I love you."
"I love you, too. You'll make the right decision."
"I hope so." *he smiles and then disappears*
I woke up with the knowledge that I wasn't going back to sleep. But I looked over and it was 6:30AM so I wasn't too upset. Now to go talk to my mom. *deep breath* I'll let you know tomorrow what I decide to do.
Anyway, on to the Visitation:
I opened my eyes and I was in our sun lit meadow with the babbling brook. I could hear it running quietly. I heard the quiet roar of the waterfall I knew to be just over at the far end of the meadow. I smelled him in the air. I turned around and saw him looking a little haggard. I don't know how to describe it. It's like he didn't have more than an hour or two of sleep in days. But it was more than looking tired. He look worn down.
"Glad you could make it."
"What's wrong, you look horrible."
"I've been busy."
"You're not taking a chapter out of my book and causing yourself pain."
"It's... I"ve been... It's hard to explain. I'm alright though."
"Ok... But you better not be lying."
"I'd never lie to you. Conceal. Spin. Lead you to believe something. But I'd never lie to you."
"Better not or I'll stop talking to you."
*raises an eye brow* "Really?"
"You're not that lucky." *smile*
"So... I'm here for a reason."
"Never a dull moment."
"You should give some serious thought to taking a semester off."
"A semester off, why?"
"You have a book to finish."
"Yeah, but can't I do both school and the book."
"It would be too much for you to handle."
"You're awfully sure of yourself. Maybe I would surprise you!"
"But you couldn't. I already know everything that's going to happen. To me, we've already had every conversation we're ever going to have done and over with. Time is not linear to me. As far as you'd be concerned every conversation that we've had and will have, I had all in the same instant of time."
"But you said I had free will. So I could change what happens. So maybe there would have to be new conversations."
"And the moment you make that decision I have all the conversations over again in the same instant. I'll save you the trouble. This argument goes around in circles because you don't see time like I do."
"Unfair."
"Very. But that's how it is. So choose, book or school, but not both."
"I'm not liking you very much right now."
*He's standing right in front of me all of the sudden* "Yes, but you still love me."
"I do. But it hurts less each time. And I'm so emotionally all over the place I'm not falling for you hard, like I normally do."
"So, go talk to your mom. She'll be helpful in you making your decision."
"You're awful bossy all the sudden, what's wrong?"
"It's just... you can't understand. It's beyond you. I'm sorry to sound so callous."
"...Fine. I'll trust you. I'll see what she has to say and then decide."
"Ok, time to go." *hugs and sweet kiss*
"I love you."
"I love you, too. You'll make the right decision."
"I hope so." *he smiles and then disappears*
I woke up with the knowledge that I wasn't going back to sleep. But I looked over and it was 6:30AM so I wasn't too upset. Now to go talk to my mom. *deep breath* I'll let you know tomorrow what I decide to do.