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School. It's almost over.
I'm getting really scared.
College... I'm not scared of taking college... I'm not scared of GOING to college... I'm not scared about keeping my grades up... I'm not scared of any of that.
I'm just scared cause i don't know anything about the whole process at all. Like, nothing.
I don't know how i go about doing anything. I don't know what courses that I'm required to take, or when i have to take them... i don't know how to do my student loan stuff... i don't even know for sure what major I want to do. I don't know if I even HAVE to know what major I want.
I'm just confused... and being confused scares me.
Our whole lives, we've had guidance counselors telling us what we have to do. "you need 3 maths... and 3 sciences... and 4 english credits. Also, you have to take econ and american govt... etc etc etc"
But with college... it's like "whatever. Take what you want, and pay for it. If you fuck it up, it's YOUR fault, and your money."
damnit... this is too much stress.
All i know is that i need to do a lot of stuff... TODAY.
1) Mow the lawn.
2) Do all my senior anouncements (yes, i know, I'm a procrastinator and didn't do them yet... a week and half before I graduate)
3) I have to film this crazy thing for spanish.
4) I have to memorize my monologue for Drama III
5) Sign two yearbooks... and I take a while when I sign yearbooks
6) I have like... a bunch of these custom pics I have to have done by tomorrow for the thespian website... and I just don't have them, and I wont have them. I just got the pictures to use for them YESTERDAY. AHH SOO cRAZY!!
7) My sanity. I have to TRY to keep this intact.
......
It's not THAT bad... but still... i don't want to do any of it. In reality, i just wanna call someone, and just talk.
I'm getting really scared.
College... I'm not scared of taking college... I'm not scared of GOING to college... I'm not scared about keeping my grades up... I'm not scared of any of that.
I'm just scared cause i don't know anything about the whole process at all. Like, nothing.
I don't know how i go about doing anything. I don't know what courses that I'm required to take, or when i have to take them... i don't know how to do my student loan stuff... i don't even know for sure what major I want to do. I don't know if I even HAVE to know what major I want.
I'm just confused... and being confused scares me.
Our whole lives, we've had guidance counselors telling us what we have to do. "you need 3 maths... and 3 sciences... and 4 english credits. Also, you have to take econ and american govt... etc etc etc"
But with college... it's like "whatever. Take what you want, and pay for it. If you fuck it up, it's YOUR fault, and your money."
damnit... this is too much stress.
All i know is that i need to do a lot of stuff... TODAY.
1) Mow the lawn.
2) Do all my senior anouncements (yes, i know, I'm a procrastinator and didn't do them yet... a week and half before I graduate)
3) I have to film this crazy thing for spanish.
4) I have to memorize my monologue for Drama III
5) Sign two yearbooks... and I take a while when I sign yearbooks
6) I have like... a bunch of these custom pics I have to have done by tomorrow for the thespian website... and I just don't have them, and I wont have them. I just got the pictures to use for them YESTERDAY. AHH SOO cRAZY!!
7) My sanity. I have to TRY to keep this intact.
......
It's not THAT bad... but still... i don't want to do any of it. In reality, i just wanna call someone, and just talk.