Heart not broken, just hurting
What has become of things lately?
There is something that I haven't told anyone, something that I kept close to the chest. A few months ago, roughly june/july last year something happened to a friend of mine. Sazia, was overseas and died of a heartattack. Age 19. I don't know the full details of the events as it was passed to me from second hand information by William. When I heard the news, I was a bit in shock, but I got over it way too fast... So it appears.
Now lets focus on recent events. I get chest pains at night or some other thing seems to happen which I start to worry and can't sleep. I know it sounds silly but sometimes it gets to the point where I hate going to sleep for fear of something happening to me in my sleep. On the eve of my b-day I've had a complete medical and I am perfect yet I still feel these things from time to time and worry myself. Sometimes to the state of insomnia and watching Fraiser or some light-hearted dvd till dawn(Predator last night doesn't count as lighthearted).
I am silly and angry with myself as I shouldn't be like that. I am from healthy/strong stock, my ancestors are the Vikings for crying out loud! Can't get more stronger than that! I guess it comes done to Post Traumatic Stress hitting me about not to mention other things. I've been under alot of stress with the end of class assessments and... personal matters.
There is something that I haven't told anyone, something that I kept close to the chest. A few months ago, roughly june/july last year something happened to a friend of mine. Sazia, was overseas and died of a heartattack. Age 19. I don't know the full details of the events as it was passed to me from second hand information by William. When I heard the news, I was a bit in shock, but I got over it way too fast... So it appears.
Now lets focus on recent events. I get chest pains at night or some other thing seems to happen which I start to worry and can't sleep. I know it sounds silly but sometimes it gets to the point where I hate going to sleep for fear of something happening to me in my sleep. On the eve of my b-day I've had a complete medical and I am perfect yet I still feel these things from time to time and worry myself. Sometimes to the state of insomnia and watching Fraiser or some light-hearted dvd till dawn(Predator last night doesn't count as lighthearted).
I am silly and angry with myself as I shouldn't be like that. I am from healthy/strong stock, my ancestors are the Vikings for crying out loud! Can't get more stronger than that! I guess it comes done to Post Traumatic Stress hitting me about not to mention other things. I've been under alot of stress with the end of class assessments and... personal matters.