And I know that you don’t care I can hardly wait to leave this place

[master_of_mugen]

WHO: Allen Walker and Kanda Yuu (Noah!Kanda)
WHAT: Trying to escape the Black Order and not being caught.
WHERE: Black Order, Forest
WHEN: After discovering that Kanda was no longer who he thought he was.

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[master_of_mugen]

Kanda growled deep in his chest, as menacing as he could muster as the damn brat approached him and grabbed the blade of his sword. He had his chance to attack the beansprout, to make him get away from him and make his escape before this went wrong...but why didnt he? He looked over at him and saw how the blade cut through his hand, and quickly the scent of blood hit him hard. Was being a Noah meant on having strong senses? He could smell that bitter and metallic scent of the boy's hand, as well as Allen's unique scent. But he quickly shook that idea out of his head since the boy grabbed his attention once more.

It was no use now to deny, to hide what he was now; damn this moyashi always meddling into other's personal business.

"I dont need you or anyone's help brat...I fight my own battles and I clearly dont need any pity from the likes of you."

He hissed and stepped into the moonlight, letting the boy see him as we was. Of course he noticed that Allen took a glimpse of him, with the moonlight, the breeze showing off his skin and eyes. Long ebony locks, dancing over the soft wind and around his back; dark gray skin almost matching the blade of the same katana he was holding and once dark blue and cold eyes were now golden orbs, lack of determination and courage. Now all they have were panic, revulsion and fear.

"I dont belong here, you idiot...I'm not an exorcist anymore and most likely I never was! Can't you see that?! I dont even know if Kanda is my real name!"

Frustration crept into the long haired teen Noah chest, why cant the other see that he was not meant to be here and needed to leave immediately? Since he was a Noah, most likely he might attack the Order and possible succeed in killing anyone that came near him, he still had some control and it would be best for everyone that he left before that would happened.

"Damnit moyashi...go back now and let me leave."

Kanda gripped the katana once more and stepped back, the beansprout had to leave and leave now.

Oh fuck it, if he was not leaving than he will.

The swordsman quickly turned around and started to run towards the forest, hoping to get away from Allen...get away from whatever mess he gotten the boy into. He ran faster, jumped higher and made sure to disappear into the darkness.

But then suddenly, the pain on his forehead started to act up again; he continued to run away from Allen as his free hand rubbed itself for a moment over his bloody forehead.

He mentally snorted, who would of thought...he would be the one running away from the white haired nuisance but there was no way in hell he would let the idiot take him back to the Order. He wasn't going to die in the hands of the Vatican or anyone for that matter, not until he found out who he really was and what had happened to him. Was he an Akuma? Human? How did he get here in the Order without the Gate Keeper sensing something was wrong with him?

So many questions and he needed answers before he died, and this damn beansprout was not going to stop him.

[arenwalker]

"I dont need you or anyone's help brat...I fight my own battles and I clearly dont need any pity from the likes of you."

Allen found himself glaring. Why did Kanda have to be so cold right now? Allen was offering his help! It was most certainly not pity, thank you very much. When Kanda stepped out to show himself, the full force of the change in the swordsman hit Allen and hit hard. The skin, once pale with a slight tan, was now an unearthly grey that made Allen shiver. Those dark eyes, deep with the night sky, sometimes dotted with stars of thoughts, now were melted gold pools, looking more uncaring than before. The black stigmata against Kanda's forehead stood out even as they bled. And Kanda's demeanor... it was changing rapidly. Allen could tell.

"I dont belong here, you idiot...I'm not an exorcist anymore and most likely I never was! Can't you see that?!"

Allen opened his mouth to protest, but Kanda's next statement cut him off.

"I don't even know if Kanda is my real name!"

Allen blinked. The identity crisis was already hitting Kanda hard. Why hadn't Kanda just laid down his pride and asked Allen? Allen himself had a Noah within him; he was probably the best person to ask up to this point. But Kanda did have a point... how long had he been a Noah? Had the power been sleeping within him or was it more like Allen, who had basically another being inside his head that happened to be Noah? It seemed to be the former.

But Kanda's control was slipping. That, Allen could see happening and he understood why Kanda was trying to leave. That didn't mean Allen was going to let Kanda leave any time soon.

Not a chance.

Allen hadn't expected Kanda to turn tail and begin to run from him. Allen immediately broke into a sprint, following the shadow that was Kanda. Sure, Allen wasn't as fast as Kanda, but damn if he couldn't not keep up with the other teenager. Kanda wasn't going to get away. And besides, Kanda was distracted with something, so Allen - unconsciously, mind - used that to his advantage.

The perfect opening point was when Kanda suddenly grimaced in pain. Allen hated to use another's pain to help him, but in this case... he'd make somewhat of an exception. It took five steps, but Allen then jumped right when Kanda was about to land and tackled the taller exorcist down to the forest floor. Allen struggled to keep Kanda down. It was hard, considering that Kanda was physically stronger than him and it wouldn't be long before Kanda threw him off. As it was, the situation was awkward, with Allen pinning Kanda down while panting from the running. Their legs were tangled together and Allen glared down at the Noah before him, keeping him captive by his arms in a tight grip. He was glad Kanda wore a coat because he wasn't sure exactly what his left hand would do to his skin. Allen didn't want to risk it.

"You... you aren't thinking. Didn't you forget something, Kanda?"

Allen glared down at the other teen.

"I can exorcise the Noah within people. You should be no different."

He let a moment pass between them so Kanda could remember that. He knew Komui had mentioned it to everyone so that they knew Allen was one of their strongest exorcists there. Kanda had been there. Kanda should've remembered. He should've...

"And besides, you should remember that no matter what you change into, no matter how drastic, you're still Yuu Kanda and you are still an exorcist!! Whatever happened to your cry of "tatakai"?!"

(OOC: "Tatakai" is the Japanese word for "fight" or "fight on". Allen's heard him say it too often)

[master_of_mugen]

That sheer pain in his head as he continued to get away from Allen, he used the tips of his fingertips to add pressure over his temples and help ease some what of the headache. He would stop running and take a breather so he can calm the pain, but with Allen right behind him, there was no way he will be able to do it.

While running, and being distracted with the pain, Kanda didn’t see Allen gaining on him as the boy ran and waited for the perfect moment to tackle him. He didn’t know what the boy was planning until it was too late and he hit the ground, hard.

"The hell?! Baka moyashi, let go of me!"

Kanda started to struggle; he would kick and punch the boy on top of him, to get him off of his body but the pain in his head limited his movements and attacks. The long haired teen then growled and glared up furiously at the boy, he continued to struggle, and the more he did, the more blood cascaded down his forehead and down his face. But he paid no mind to it; he had an annoying sprout to worry about.

Kanda continued to glare as the other mentioned about him being able to exorcise Noahs from humans; he snorted and pushed the boy away from his body. He stayed on the ground, panting heavily as he wiped some of the blood from his forehead. He refused to comment on that, he didn’t want Allen’s help...this was his own problem, he had to deal with this on his own.

The samurai mentally flinched as he heard Allen mentioned about that he was and will be an exorcist, that he was who he was and that that shouldn’t make any difference. He looked away and frown, slowly getting up and dusting himself off before picking up the katana he dropped when Allen tackled him, he placed it back into its sheath on his back and turned to the boy.

“Think what you want, moyashi…I’m NOT staying. I am an enemy to you and everyone in the Order. IF I do return, I will be dead. Don’t you see, I can’t stay here!”

He then turned around and started walking, maybe this time Allen will get the idea and let him leave. He then mumbled to himself as he headed deeper into the forest, thinking.

“I have no reason to go back anyway.”

((ooc: lol oh yeah xD))

[arenwalker]

Allen noticed how much his attempts to control Kanda's struggles were hurting the samurai then, as he noticed that the blood flow from Kanda's forehead that had been steady suddenly flowing more rapidly and that made him loosen his grip. Kanda shoved him off none too gracefully and Allen winced as he landed back on the hard forest floor. It was just as well, really. Allen noticed Kanda didn't ask him to immediately exorcise the Noah within him, nor did he say how unbelievable it was. So... he had to have accepted the idea, but wasn't going to ask any time soon.

"Don't you see, I can’t stay here!”

"Kanda, that's not true; I can help you," Allen said, a slight undertone of desperation showing through. "Why won't you let me help you?"

Why indeed. Allen had finally risen to his feet as Kanda did. The man turned away from him and something within Allen pulsed. The moonlight flickered over Kanda's face, illuminating the changed skin, the colder eyes, and the bleeding stigmata. Yet despite all those changes, it was still Kanda. Kanda was still the Kanda that Allen knew. Cold, somewhat indifferent, but in his own way, he was caring.

It was showing now. Allen understood why Kanda was trying to leave. He actually did care about the others, including Allen even if the samurai didn't voice such a thing. He was leaving so he wouldn't kill everyone should the Noah within him demand blood. In his own way, Kanda was making it ridiculously difficult this way, but it did show he cared about the war and what happened.

“I have no reason to go back anyway.”

Allen had barely caught those words and he took a step forward before he was following Kanda again. He grit his teeth, his frustration coiling around his heart and becoming prominent again. "Yes you do!" Allen caught up with Kanda and caught his wrist. "I know that in your mind, this is your way of showing you care for the well-being of the Order, but running away from it isn't going to change anything!"

Allen narrowed his eyes at the swordsman. "And besides, if you're suddenly an enemy to the Order, where does that put me, Kanda!? Did you forget I have the exact same problem? In any normal situation, I would've laughed at the irony at this because you always taunted me about the Fourteenth in my head, but you're not making this easy on anyone, especially yourself!"

His grip tightened, if possible, and his hand began to shake slightly due to the intensity at which he held Kanda's arm.

"And besides, Kanda, half of this is your own fault because you're not fighting it; you're only running away like a coward!" Allen ground out, his cloudy eyes intense. He looked... dangerous. The pulsing throb beneath his skin suddenly began to taunt him and Allen realized it was the Fourteenth, reacting to the fact Kanda was a Noah. The Fourteenth was laughing in the back of his mind, speaking words Allen couldn't understand and trying to drag Allen's conscious back into the darkness. Allen pushed back his inner Noah. No, he wouldn't allow him to surface. He couldn't. Not now and not when Kanda needed help.

[arenwalker]

Allen focused back on the Japanese male. He let out a long breath, his grip not relinquishing Kanda's arm any time soon. "What do you think will happen if you leave, Kanda? If you find out anything you want to find out, what then? Would you kill yourself? Would you come back and kill everyone here? Would you kill me, Kanda?"

Allen knew that Kanda followed the Bushido Code of the Samurai. If it were for a noble or honorable cause, Kanda would probably try to kill himself. But what if his Noah side began to demand others' blood? Allen wouldn't be able to fight Kanda unless he exorcised him in the process. Allen couldn't bear fighting Kanda like that. Not like that.

Would Kanda kill Allen, the closest thing he had to a comrade and friend now? Allen had a Noah and so did Kanda. Allen was still and exorcist and so was Kanda. They had more in common and Allen was probably the only one who would understand Kanda and his actions after this night.

Allen wanted him to stay. Allen needed Kanda to stay. They both had their burdens they'd both been shouldering for a long time, but they would probably be much easier to bear if they could both relate and understand. Which now they could. If Kanda would stay.

[master_of_mugen]

Kanda quickly turned his head towards the younger boy and glared, he struggled to get his arm free from that tight grip but since Allen was using his innocence it was a bit difficult, not that he would say it out loud. He kept quiet as he slowly stop his struggle, seeing that it was useless. As the white haired teen mentioned that he knew the reason for him leaving the Order, the Noah turned his head away and frowned. Of course he cared...slightly. That was the whole reason for him to leave in the first place, he would rather depart from the only place he thought was his home rather than turn around and let the Noah take over and kill everyone he hold dear.

He then mentally winced as he remembered that Allen was suffering the same fate as he was, well slightly different but nonetheless the same thing. Feeling that something or someone was inside him and slowly creeping into his mind, seeing disturbing images when he slept, hearing a deep voice in his subconscious...telling him about how it all would be better if he just let things take its course. He growled to himself, feeling ashamed that Allen spoke the truth about him being a coward...who knew that he would just give up on this. Not that he didn't try, it was more than enough reason he gave everyone to leave him alone, not letting them know the pain he was going through...he was just...he didn't know why or how this happened, he needed to leave and find out for himself. He will worry about the consequences of his actions when the time came.

As he continued to hear Allen, he slowly turned his head and noticed the slight change the boy had, feeling a pulse throbbing under his ashen skin...must be that 14th trying to do something to the idiot.

"Let go...now, Walker." Kanda hissed and once again struggled to break free, until he finally did. The samurai then turn to bend over and pick up the katana he dropped after Allen tackled him to the ground and place it back into its sheath before turning once more to the boy.

Just when he was about to tell him to get away from him one last time, to forget about him and to just worry about his damn self, he saw the look that the other had.

'Would you kill me, Kanda?

Kanda frowned, he knew that that question was going to come up someday, but he wasnt expecting that so soon. Of course it came into his mind the moment he saw his reflection, that was why he had to leave...if only the damn idiot would let him.

The swordsman turned his back on him, he then closed his eyes as he ran his bloody and dirty hand through his bands and over his head, mixing his once clean and silky hair with dirt, blood and sweat. Not like he cared. "God damn you, moyashi." he mumbled to himself, as he then turned to walk towards a stream he heard moments before.

Reaching the water, he kneel before it and pulled up the sleeves of his jacket before submerging his hands into the water, he sighed as he felt how cool the liquid was as it ran over his palms, after washing them clean he then cup the water onto his hands and splashed it over his face. He did so a few times until he stopped, thinking that he controlled the bleeding from his forehead.

After a few minutes, the samurai slowly stood up, still having his back facing the white haired pain in the ass as he wiped the few remaining drops of water from his hands. He then spoke, emotionless because at the moment...he just didnt know how exactly to feel about everything, about him and about Allen.

"You piss me off to no end, moyashi...always thinking about others than yourself. Even thou I clearly told you I dont need it."

[master_of_mugen]

Finally he turned around to look at the other, letting his now golden eyes stare into those cloudy gray ones.

"Bastard, you dont give me much choice, do you? No matter what I say you will not stop and get me to return back. Even thou you know it will cost me my life, even if it was a lie."

Kanda then slowly took a few steps towards the half exorcist/half noah until he was standing in front of the him, the swordsman sighed heavily as he had to admit that he was...scared and confused as to what to do now; he only thought of getting some answers to what he needed to know; after that...who knows. If he was going to go down, he will damn make sure that one else went down with him....especially the annoying moyashi.

"I'm not Kanda, idiot...you already have one, I assumed that he was an impostor, clearly I was mistaken. I should NOT be here, why cant you get that through your thick skull, hmm? The moment I even step foot in that building, they all will know and I'll be damned if I'm going to be hiding."

"What do you want from me, moyashi? How you planned on 'helping' me?"