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"The feeling the way it feels when laboratory product-testing animals are ground up to make hot dogs--That's how hurt I feel."
Maybe I am too sensitive. I just feel sad for a multitude of reasons. My sister didn't wish me a happy birthday. Selfish? Yes, a little. But I don't even feel like I exsist to her. And for as much as I've done for her...yeah...The least she could do is say "Happy Birthday" to me.
My self-confidence has been shot down tremendously this past week. Kenny had said something about me, something along the lines of "Being with Deana was like being all alone in an empty box" and that he felt "empty" the entire time I was with him. That hurt. Like a stab in the back type of hurt.
Because of that, I've started to wonder about myself...am I a really bad person? Do I really lack that much depth that I can be compared to an empty box? Am I so self-indulgent that I make everyone around me feel worthless? Is that why I don't have any more than 4 friends? I have tons of acquaintences...but REAL friends? Maybe four. Dave, Mei, Shannon, and Teresa.
I'm just bitching. I'm gonna go play some Animal Crossing (thank you Dave).
Maybe I am too sensitive. I just feel sad for a multitude of reasons. My sister didn't wish me a happy birthday. Selfish? Yes, a little. But I don't even feel like I exsist to her. And for as much as I've done for her...yeah...The least she could do is say "Happy Birthday" to me.
My self-confidence has been shot down tremendously this past week. Kenny had said something about me, something along the lines of "Being with Deana was like being all alone in an empty box" and that he felt "empty" the entire time I was with him. That hurt. Like a stab in the back type of hurt.
Because of that, I've started to wonder about myself...am I a really bad person? Do I really lack that much depth that I can be compared to an empty box? Am I so self-indulgent that I make everyone around me feel worthless? Is that why I don't have any more than 4 friends? I have tons of acquaintences...but REAL friends? Maybe four. Dave, Mei, Shannon, and Teresa.
I'm just bitching. I'm gonna go play some Animal Crossing (thank you Dave).