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I have not enjoyed today at all...at least, not so far. It feels as if a war is going on in my mind! I know that (a) is on this side of the spectrum and (b) is on the other, and i know which one is right, but i also know which one i want...er...well, think i want...er...I DON'T KNOW! blargh!!!!! i hate this! i really feel like i'm being torn in two! i haven't felt like this in a LONG time...and i don't like it...it's kinda frightening...i don't like this feeling at all...pray for me...