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Lost most of my documents from my PC completely inexplicably, accompanied by some seemingly random permissions problems. Not only have I lost so much, none of it makes sense. The problems are too complex for me to have done by accident, too clean and regular for hardware OR software problems (besides, running very stable releases) and cracking is just out of the question. So wtf?, and also, somewhat devastated: lots of music (though not all), all my photots, writing (NNWM!! Major works!), artworks, resume, various useful stuff, every essay since c. 2001.
Must. Back. Up. More. Often. (The last one is, with horrible irony, from 2006 only days from now)
Thank goodness for the internet, keeping some stability in my falling-apartness. My f-list is still here, thousnds of archived emails, if I need to download Azureus again there it is; if I need to find something out, it is out there somewhere. Thankyou internet. Please don't go the way of my hard drive.
At least my room still smells like roses (thankyou, lovely Valentine's Day people, you made me dreadfully happy).
It's raining very softly, which is nice (and it smells good). The air has cooled, too, so it's like autumn rain. There are two times of year that I always think are my favourite: early autumn changing into a very short lull before real winter (damp, cool, scarf-wearing, tea-drinking, sweet-smelling) and the very first few days which feel like summer and something in the air instantly makes me think of primary school and climbing trees. I can never decide between them; right now I would of course choose autumn as my favourite, but in spring, the opposite. Thankfully I am not so contrary as to prefer spring in autumn and autumn in spring, although I wouldn't put it past me.
very lonely.