Fuckin Liberals, Fuckin Conservatives - they are both equally as ignorantly pompous
okay, so here's the gyst of everything:
rion and i are together and better than ever (well, for the most part). i wish i had worked harder in high school so i wouldn't have to live in this piece-of-shit town. i belong somewhere in a big city, and i have been contemplating dropping out. but that would require a job that would provide a substantial amount of money, and a car which would mean that i need a license. i love everyone here, but i have to find something important to do with myself or else i will just cease to have a purpose for being here. i hate just taking up space.
everyone go see the weather man. it isn't your typical happy-go-lucky family film, which i know is what the previews have been portraying. it's depressingly realistic, just how i like it.
i love my parents, maybe not for the right reasons. and i appreciate them going out of their way to assure my success up here at western (though i will probably disappoint them as i have done myself). i love rion just because i do. i can't explain it. i try. but every time i realize that i am probably way off in describing the reasons. and i want to be with him. i want him in my future, and that's that.
i'm getting over my current crush on whats-his-face. it was totally pointless, as most of my crushes are. but they're still there. luckily, this one is fading and i truly appreciate that.
i can't stand arrogant assholes. that goes for everyone i know who is so obsessed with themselves that they can't put themselves in another person's shoes. whatever. i know i'm not perfect, but i can admit when i'm wrong. and i have been wrong about a lotta shit.
i have come to terms with the fact that i am snobby about certain things. i don't think that people shouldn't be able to express themselves, but i tend to play the arrogant asshole at times (more times than i would like to remember). i know that my opinion is my opinion, and it might seem biased. i don't usually realize it is until i really think hard about it. i usually just open my mouth and let anything come out, whether or not it is wise to say whatever it is i feel like saying at the moment. i am passionate about my opinions on film and music (the two biggest subjects for me), and take it however you want. because i know that no matter how nicely i try to put things, someone will always take what i say the wrong way. and that fucking sucks, because i am not good at putting things in the way i feel them. i don't mean to get all nelly furtado, but seriously, "say what you want." i am tired of trying to explain everything. and i am tired of worrying about what other people think about my writing. i need to learn how to just write and keep writing without worrying about how it will affect other people. i have to be selfish to an extent, at least to get anything i want done.
so much for a gyst, right?
rion and i are together and better than ever (well, for the most part). i wish i had worked harder in high school so i wouldn't have to live in this piece-of-shit town. i belong somewhere in a big city, and i have been contemplating dropping out. but that would require a job that would provide a substantial amount of money, and a car which would mean that i need a license. i love everyone here, but i have to find something important to do with myself or else i will just cease to have a purpose for being here. i hate just taking up space.
everyone go see the weather man. it isn't your typical happy-go-lucky family film, which i know is what the previews have been portraying. it's depressingly realistic, just how i like it.
i love my parents, maybe not for the right reasons. and i appreciate them going out of their way to assure my success up here at western (though i will probably disappoint them as i have done myself). i love rion just because i do. i can't explain it. i try. but every time i realize that i am probably way off in describing the reasons. and i want to be with him. i want him in my future, and that's that.
i'm getting over my current crush on whats-his-face. it was totally pointless, as most of my crushes are. but they're still there. luckily, this one is fading and i truly appreciate that.
i can't stand arrogant assholes. that goes for everyone i know who is so obsessed with themselves that they can't put themselves in another person's shoes. whatever. i know i'm not perfect, but i can admit when i'm wrong. and i have been wrong about a lotta shit.
i have come to terms with the fact that i am snobby about certain things. i don't think that people shouldn't be able to express themselves, but i tend to play the arrogant asshole at times (more times than i would like to remember). i know that my opinion is my opinion, and it might seem biased. i don't usually realize it is until i really think hard about it. i usually just open my mouth and let anything come out, whether or not it is wise to say whatever it is i feel like saying at the moment. i am passionate about my opinions on film and music (the two biggest subjects for me), and take it however you want. because i know that no matter how nicely i try to put things, someone will always take what i say the wrong way. and that fucking sucks, because i am not good at putting things in the way i feel them. i don't mean to get all nelly furtado, but seriously, "say what you want." i am tired of trying to explain everything. and i am tired of worrying about what other people think about my writing. i need to learn how to just write and keep writing without worrying about how it will affect other people. i have to be selfish to an extent, at least to get anything i want done.
so much for a gyst, right?