Of Motorcycles and Men
I got through to Paul! yay!
This is the beginning of my theory...
It was really good to hear his voice. There is something about some male voices that are such a turn on. They're not just attractive, they're comforting. I'm a sucker for these voices.... powerless among the tidal wave of hormones and, um, stuff... :/ Hope will understand this.
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This is the beginning of my theory...
It was really good to hear his voice. There is something about some male voices that are such a turn on. They're not just attractive, they're comforting. I'm a sucker for these voices.... powerless among the tidal wave of hormones and, um, stuff... :/ Hope will understand this.
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I do realize it's not healthy. However, I find it easier to cope with things when I pretend I had a logical master plan all along, and I pretend I'm not actually in love with someone who doesn't love me back.
I suppose it's a favorite coping mechanism of mine.
At some point I'll come to realize that I didn't really need Paul, that it was a learning experience, and the cool plan will make a great story... instead of a heartbreaking memory.
In the mean time it's helping me feel like a super cool spy, instead of a super stupid girl who should have known better... i.e. I'm at the gym instead of crying myself to sleep.
Yeah, I think Hope and I totally discussed, um, er, "smelling" you at some point that year :/
So, you have boob-o-phobia!
I think the whole "gay" thing makes sense for you. It is a convienent label, especially for other people who seem to need the right slot (haha)... bisexual is just sooooo confusing for stupid people.
I told my husband when he was worried me might be "a little bit gay"... we were sitting in a cafe in Amsterdam this past new years and we were having an intimate moment on X (my first time!), he was freakin' out... I replied, "so? Isn't everyone?"
He said, "yeah but.... this guy gave me a blow job once, I mean I was really out of it, but I didn't like it, but I came, but, I mean, I was curious, y'know?"
I think I said something profound like, "Sex is sex is sex. It felt good; you got off. You didn't do him, he did you. What's the big deal?"
And then I proceeded enter the most personal and indepth conversation with a girl who didn't speak English..... but I digress:
He's definitely not a boob-o-phob though ;)
OH! did I ever tell you I did the father from American Pie with a strap on?... he was an excellent tipper!........ I digress again:
Gosh Ez, why can't you just fit into a pre-ordained label? You're getting everyone off track!:)
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