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Yeah, so Callum sent me an e-mail.
At first I got scared he was going to jump out of the screen and kick me in the face? Then I saw that that e-mail didn't begin with words full of shit like I was expecting (or Callum jumping out of the screen to kick me in the face). That's weird, I thought. I must investigate.
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One of the things you said is "I'm suprised you took the time to actually post about me. I would of thought you'd have no time for me pending you "hate me" so much."
One post, out of how many? I think I'm close to 450 bullshit posts about things I hate (or don't, but I bet there are many about things I hate though) now, right?
Since when have I ever not had enough time talking about things I hate so much?
Didn't he just notice the 5-or-so entries about abortion and how so many people who are against it piss me off? Come on. This is my journal, I write about things that I hate with pleasure, and at the moment, I have all the time in the world to do so. o.o
You also mention how YOU doesn't talk about me to other people. Well, most people on my journal don't know who the hell you are, and don't give a shit either way. Notice the very few comments that journal entry received? (Then again most of my journal entries do since nearly all that I ever write on this journal is bullshit to others but me).
And I still DO find him hypocritical, because how many times haven't I talked to people about how mean/arrogant/stupid etc. he is? How much he fucks people around? How he's dis-respectful to people's feelings and how much he takes the piss? His sudden personality changes, from being someone you're really comfortable talking to, to suddenly someone you're scared will jump out of the screen and spit on you?
Come on. You've hurt a lot of people, including me, so what do you expect? I'm not saying I haven't hurt you back, but you've had your revenge, right? I had to write that stuff down, otherwise it would have been gnawing in the back of my head for days.
"And oh, for fucks sake.. Do you still go on about grammar, and spelling, as
if you're so much better at it.. I thought I made that clear once, I do not
give a shit. Okay? Besides, you can spell, but you cant understand verbal
speak. Maddy proved that a while back with her little story thing that she
recorded for you. :)"
As a matter of fact, I do still go on about spelling and such, since to me, spelling wrong is like throwing ink at a work of art, ruining it, leaving something once spotless full of flaws. That's what it's like to me. We all have our differences, you don't give a shit, but I do. You go on about things that I don't give a shit about, but you do.
Maddy was constantly giggling and laughing and speaking weirdly. Come on. And since when do I have to understand verbal speak?
I've only been CHATTING with people in "proper" and "understandable" English for less than 3 years (probably counting from when I first realised that I type better than most people I chat to, even though I'm not sure when). And I had already been using English sites (such as groupboard.com and neopets.com) on internet for about two years before that. Do you want to see a profile for my "Chomby"-neopet I made when I had just turned 12?
This is my chomby, and its name is _Marinella_. It haves a little cute Miamouse cald Mira=). It really loves Mira=D. _Marinella_ loves to read books, and it have read many books already!=D It's allmost happy ALLWAYS!!! That's best with chombies! I LOVE _MARINELLA_!!!! (she's the best!)
...Yes, I wrote like that just 3 years ago. Compare that to NOW.
Most people in my class still can't write better than that.
Just imagine how BAD THEIR ENGLISH IS. And I have to practise speaking in English with those people in English class.
I hear people speaking in English probably less than once every SECOND week (since I read subtitles when watching TV, and don't really give too much notice to the people speaking, then again, if you count that, that's still only about 1-2 hours a day, if even that).
You probably hear people speaking in English EVERY day, and you probably SPEAK in English every day as well. I don't. I have all the right in the world not to "understand" Maddy's 'verbal speak', since English is a language I sure as hell am not used to speaking or listening to, yet I'm very good when you compare to most of my friends, classmates and elders.
It wasn't the same situation for me as it was for you, especially since you've probably lived in England and spoken in English all your life, which I have not.
I sure as hell won't be able to listen to someone like Maddy babbling in English, especially while she's giggling, and I thought you would understand that. My English pronunciation is DAMNED good, as is my ability to listen to people who are speaking in English, meaning your argument is null and void.
"
Must you dwell on the past? Okay, I admit, I was or still am sometimes and
Arrogant, stuck up little shit.. I was an idiot. I was flippent, and mean. I
am sorry. Believe it or not, I have changed, for the better? I do not know,
I am not as arrogant, flippent, stuckup, immature nor idiotic as I used to
be.
I was an asshole to you, but you were an assshole to me, we pissed eachother
off. And now, for the better, we do not talk anymore. So I dont actually
appreciate that kind of shit being said about me. When was the last time we
spoke? 6 months to a year ago. I've had that long to scrutinize the error of
ones ways. I have changed. For the better aswell, I hope. I used to take the
piss once in a while, yeah, I used to be immature, yes, I used to piss
people off, yeah. I admit. I was a cock."
I dwell on the past a lot, especially since with you and me, we never had a "proper" good bye or anything. You've always been blocking me and removing me, leaving me wondering "hey will we ever even talk again?" but that was the final time you did.
But again.. "I hate you" Why? I wasn't actually that mean to you, we had
our arguments, yeah, but everyone does. We dont even speak anymore, and you
still hate me?"
Again, we never said bye, and I reckon you were very mean to me seeing as I've received so much pain by things you've said. I used to love you, you turned mean to me, I decided that was shitty and started talking to James more, and ended up loving him. But that doesn't mean I just forgot all about you? I just eventually lost most of my feelings for you, but you always brought some back up in me by being mean, which gave the "mean-ness" a boost, even if you probably weren't aware of that. So those things you've written in your profile made me realise how much of those things you've done yourself to people, which naturally made me dislike you a lot. So no, I don't hate you any more. I was angry while writing that. My hate isn't long lasting at all.
I'm not saying you might have not changed, I'm just saying it sounded very hypocritical to me, and if you hate those things, you must've changed loads. Then again, as have I (yeah I'm not AS obsessed with spelling and shit, honestly! But, I'm still too obsessed according to other people o.o;;).
I'm hypocritical myself all the time anyway, so yeah - writing that shit was hypocritical of me, which makes the whole "FUCKING HYPOCRITE" thing I wrote null and void of me.
It wasn't supposed to be offensive-to-the-extreme, I just needed to let it all out. And that's that. I'm sorry - I got angry, and that entry should've been set as 'private'. I'm sorry.
"Yeah, I'm going to the hairdressers on saturday to get it dyed and trimmed
and stuff." !! YESSSSSS [wank].
At first I got scared he was going to jump out of the screen and kick me in the face? Then I saw that that e-mail didn't begin with words full of shit like I was expecting (or Callum jumping out of the screen to kick me in the face). That's weird, I thought. I must investigate.
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One of the things you said is "I'm suprised you took the time to actually post about me. I would of thought you'd have no time for me pending you "hate me" so much."
One post, out of how many? I think I'm close to 450 bullshit posts about things I hate (or don't, but I bet there are many about things I hate though) now, right?
Since when have I ever not had enough time talking about things I hate so much?
Didn't he just notice the 5-or-so entries about abortion and how so many people who are against it piss me off? Come on. This is my journal, I write about things that I hate with pleasure, and at the moment, I have all the time in the world to do so. o.o
You also mention how YOU doesn't talk about me to other people. Well, most people on my journal don't know who the hell you are, and don't give a shit either way. Notice the very few comments that journal entry received? (Then again most of my journal entries do since nearly all that I ever write on this journal is bullshit to others but me).
And I still DO find him hypocritical, because how many times haven't I talked to people about how mean/arrogant/stupid etc. he is? How much he fucks people around? How he's dis-respectful to people's feelings and how much he takes the piss? His sudden personality changes, from being someone you're really comfortable talking to, to suddenly someone you're scared will jump out of the screen and spit on you?
Come on. You've hurt a lot of people, including me, so what do you expect? I'm not saying I haven't hurt you back, but you've had your revenge, right? I had to write that stuff down, otherwise it would have been gnawing in the back of my head for days.
"And oh, for fucks sake.. Do you still go on about grammar, and spelling, as
if you're so much better at it.. I thought I made that clear once, I do not
give a shit. Okay? Besides, you can spell, but you cant understand verbal
speak. Maddy proved that a while back with her little story thing that she
recorded for you. :)"
As a matter of fact, I do still go on about spelling and such, since to me, spelling wrong is like throwing ink at a work of art, ruining it, leaving something once spotless full of flaws. That's what it's like to me. We all have our differences, you don't give a shit, but I do. You go on about things that I don't give a shit about, but you do.
Maddy was constantly giggling and laughing and speaking weirdly. Come on. And since when do I have to understand verbal speak?
I've only been CHATTING with people in "proper" and "understandable" English for less than 3 years (probably counting from when I first realised that I type better than most people I chat to, even though I'm not sure when). And I had already been using English sites (such as groupboard.com and neopets.com) on internet for about two years before that. Do you want to see a profile for my "Chomby"-neopet I made when I had just turned 12?
This is my chomby, and its name is _Marinella_. It haves a little cute Miamouse cald Mira=). It really loves Mira=D. _Marinella_ loves to read books, and it have read many books already!=D It's allmost happy ALLWAYS!!! That's best with chombies! I LOVE _MARINELLA_!!!! (she's the best!)
...Yes, I wrote like that just 3 years ago. Compare that to NOW.
Most people in my class still can't write better than that.
Just imagine how BAD THEIR ENGLISH IS. And I have to practise speaking in English with those people in English class.
I hear people speaking in English probably less than once every SECOND week (since I read subtitles when watching TV, and don't really give too much notice to the people speaking, then again, if you count that, that's still only about 1-2 hours a day, if even that).
You probably hear people speaking in English EVERY day, and you probably SPEAK in English every day as well. I don't. I have all the right in the world not to "understand" Maddy's 'verbal speak', since English is a language I sure as hell am not used to speaking or listening to, yet I'm very good when you compare to most of my friends, classmates and elders.
It wasn't the same situation for me as it was for you, especially since you've probably lived in England and spoken in English all your life, which I have not.
I sure as hell won't be able to listen to someone like Maddy babbling in English, especially while she's giggling, and I thought you would understand that. My English pronunciation is DAMNED good, as is my ability to listen to people who are speaking in English, meaning your argument is null and void.
"
Must you dwell on the past? Okay, I admit, I was or still am sometimes and
Arrogant, stuck up little shit.. I was an idiot. I was flippent, and mean. I
am sorry. Believe it or not, I have changed, for the better? I do not know,
I am not as arrogant, flippent, stuckup, immature nor idiotic as I used to
be.
I was an asshole to you, but you were an assshole to me, we pissed eachother
off. And now, for the better, we do not talk anymore. So I dont actually
appreciate that kind of shit being said about me. When was the last time we
spoke? 6 months to a year ago. I've had that long to scrutinize the error of
ones ways. I have changed. For the better aswell, I hope. I used to take the
piss once in a while, yeah, I used to be immature, yes, I used to piss
people off, yeah. I admit. I was a cock."
I dwell on the past a lot, especially since with you and me, we never had a "proper" good bye or anything. You've always been blocking me and removing me, leaving me wondering "hey will we ever even talk again?" but that was the final time you did.
But again.. "I hate you" Why? I wasn't actually that mean to you, we had
our arguments, yeah, but everyone does. We dont even speak anymore, and you
still hate me?"
Again, we never said bye, and I reckon you were very mean to me seeing as I've received so much pain by things you've said. I used to love you, you turned mean to me, I decided that was shitty and started talking to James more, and ended up loving him. But that doesn't mean I just forgot all about you? I just eventually lost most of my feelings for you, but you always brought some back up in me by being mean, which gave the "mean-ness" a boost, even if you probably weren't aware of that. So those things you've written in your profile made me realise how much of those things you've done yourself to people, which naturally made me dislike you a lot. So no, I don't hate you any more. I was angry while writing that. My hate isn't long lasting at all.
I'm not saying you might have not changed, I'm just saying it sounded very hypocritical to me, and if you hate those things, you must've changed loads. Then again, as have I (yeah I'm not AS obsessed with spelling and shit, honestly! But, I'm still too obsessed according to other people o.o;;).
I'm hypocritical myself all the time anyway, so yeah - writing that shit was hypocritical of me, which makes the whole "FUCKING HYPOCRITE" thing I wrote null and void of me.
It wasn't supposed to be offensive-to-the-extreme, I just needed to let it all out. And that's that. I'm sorry - I got angry, and that entry should've been set as 'private'. I'm sorry.
"Yeah, I'm going to the hairdressers on saturday to get it dyed and trimmed
and stuff." !! YESSSSSS [wank].