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Perhaps the most difficult things in life lead to the very best things. I've just reached a point where the transition I'm making has become so elaborate and significant that I know everything with which I was familiar up until a matter of weeks ago will cease to exist. I am incredibly confused and at times I wonder if everything I did, every effort I put in, was wasted. I don't know, but I've given up on certain things on which, I had dwelled. I have obligations and priorities. I have a job caring for my Grandmother a couple of nights a week now, I have school work to finish and applications to fill out; I'm having difficulty in relationships at the moment that are entirely unnecessary and just giving me more drama which I really don't need at this point. I'm 18 years old and nothing that's happening RIGHT now will matter in a couple of months. It will all be over and I'll be off doing my own thing and living my own life. I want to be on good terms with everyone when I leave. There are people in this town that I love too death, not many, but there are some. I just wish that stupid things were never said and that we could all enjoy our time together. Life is short as fuck, but this is such a small part and everyone seems to think it'll last forever, but it won't. Just make the best of everything. I'm about 80% sure that nobody is going to actually take the time to read this...but for the other 20% of me that hopes someone will come across it..the only people that are capable of reading this are either friends with me right now..or were at one point in time..I just want to say to all of you that no matter what the hell happens..I wish you the best and you've definitely left an impression on me that will probably last for the rest of my life. But yes, on that note...It's time for dinner...
Later.
Later.