Re: FILL: To Break A Hero (F!Shep/Kaidan) 4/?
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February 25 2014, 23:29:22 UTC
They left him alone for a few meal-cycles after that.
Except that he wasn’t really alone. The voice in the back of his head was like a shadow-Kaidan, one that was buying the Cerberus party line and doing his best to turn the real Kaidan to his way of thinking.
The scariest part was that shadow-Kaidan was beginning to talk back to him.
His sleep was restless and heated, his dreams filled with a female voice promising ecstasy if he surrendered, causing him to wake with a hard-on every ‘morning’. He thought about Shepard when he closed his hand over his cock, keeping her image fresh, trying not to lose hope despite the logic that Eva had previously laid out for him.
Shepard will come.
Shepard has no idea where to start looking, even if the Alliance would let her look, shadow-Kaidan countered.
Kaidan had put the terminal through his paces when it was first delivered, after he’d finished reading through all the articles on Shepard’s return to the Alliance. He wasn’t the hacker that Tali was, but he was able to do a few things with computers - and he couldn’t get anywhere with the terminal. Not entirely surprising. He didn’t take Eva for a fool.
He’d decided to space out the rest of the content on the terminal to keep himself from going stir crazy - more stir crazy. Before Eva showed up again, he’d read through all the Lazarus Project files and been absolutely astounded at the details of what had been done to rebuild Shepard.
When Eva did show up, he was sitting at the desk, and didn’t even bother to make a break for the door. He really didn’t need the headache.
“Enjoyed the reading?” she asked him.
“I did, actually,” he admitted. “Thanks.”
“My, my!” Eva murmured. “That’s the first nice thing you’ve said to me.”
“Don’t get used to it,” Kaidan muttered.
“On the contrary,” Eva said, walking over and resting both of her hands on his shoulders. “I think you’ll have many more nice things to say to me in the future.” She bent her head to fix Kaidan’s gaze with her own, and he found he could not look away - he couldn’t even move. He was sure his pupils were dilating as he stared into her green eyes, captivated by the sight, feeling an odd flutter in his stomach.
“You want me, Kaidan. Don’t deny it.”
In the back of his mind, Shadow-Kaidan whispered you can’t resist her
“You’ve been dreaming about me, wondering what it would feel like to fuck me.”
you want to fuck her
“Right now, you can’t think of anything but me and how much you love listening to my voice.”
listen and do what she says
“You’re getting more aroused by the minute, your desire building and pushing all other thoughts out.”
you need to be inside her
Kaidan couldn’t breathe. The back-and-forth of Eva and Shadow-Kaidan had him completely trapped, suspended in some kind of indecisive limbo. His hands burned at his side and his cock strained against his pants, but he didn’t move. He knew he didn’t want to have sex with Eva, but some part of him had been convinced otherwise - his desire for her was growing by the minute. Or maybe it was just plain desire that needed an outlet, and Eva was an all too convenient one. A willing woman is better than your right hand.
He fought it with every part of him that was available to fight. Shepard. I love Shepard. I won’t betray her.
you already have
“Fight all you want. It makes the inevitable surrender that much sweeter.”
surrender to her
“You’re going to fuck me, Kaidan. You want it too much not to.”
you want her
Eva drew her tongue across her lips, slowly, and then breathed, “Kiss me.”
No, Kaidan thought.
Yes, oh god yes, shadow-Kaidan said, and took control of Kaidan's body so that he could obey her order.
Except that he wasn’t really alone. The voice in the back of his head was like a shadow-Kaidan, one that was buying the Cerberus party line and doing his best to turn the real Kaidan to his way of thinking.
The scariest part was that shadow-Kaidan was beginning to talk back to him.
His sleep was restless and heated, his dreams filled with a female voice promising ecstasy if he surrendered, causing him to wake with a hard-on every ‘morning’. He thought about Shepard when he closed his hand over his cock, keeping her image fresh, trying not to lose hope despite the logic that Eva had previously laid out for him.
Shepard will come.
Shepard has no idea where to start looking, even if the Alliance would let her look, shadow-Kaidan countered.
Kaidan had put the terminal through his paces when it was first delivered, after he’d finished reading through all the articles on Shepard’s return to the Alliance. He wasn’t the hacker that Tali was, but he was able to do a few things with computers - and he couldn’t get anywhere with the terminal. Not entirely surprising. He didn’t take Eva for a fool.
He’d decided to space out the rest of the content on the terminal to keep himself from going stir crazy - more stir crazy. Before Eva showed up again, he’d read through all the Lazarus Project files and been absolutely astounded at the details of what had been done to rebuild Shepard.
When Eva did show up, he was sitting at the desk, and didn’t even bother to make a break for the door. He really didn’t need the headache.
“Enjoyed the reading?” she asked him.
“I did, actually,” he admitted. “Thanks.”
“My, my!” Eva murmured. “That’s the first nice thing you’ve said to me.”
“Don’t get used to it,” Kaidan muttered.
“On the contrary,” Eva said, walking over and resting both of her hands on his shoulders. “I think you’ll have many more nice things to say to me in the future.” She bent her head to fix Kaidan’s gaze with her own, and he found he could not look away - he couldn’t even move. He was sure his pupils were dilating as he stared into her green eyes, captivated by the sight, feeling an odd flutter in his stomach.
“You want me, Kaidan. Don’t deny it.”
In the back of his mind, Shadow-Kaidan whispered you can’t resist her
“You’ve been dreaming about me, wondering what it would feel like to fuck me.”
you want to fuck her
“Right now, you can’t think of anything but me and how much you love listening to my voice.”
listen and do what she says
“You’re getting more aroused by the minute, your desire building and pushing all other thoughts out.”
you need to be inside her
Kaidan couldn’t breathe. The back-and-forth of Eva and Shadow-Kaidan had him completely trapped, suspended in some kind of indecisive limbo. His hands burned at his side and his cock strained against his pants, but he didn’t move. He knew he didn’t want to have sex with Eva, but some part of him had been convinced otherwise - his desire for her was growing by the minute. Or maybe it was just plain desire that needed an outlet, and Eva was an all too convenient one. A willing woman is better than your right hand.
He fought it with every part of him that was available to fight. Shepard. I love Shepard. I won’t betray her.
you already have
“Fight all you want. It makes the inevitable surrender that much sweeter.”
surrender to her
“You’re going to fuck me, Kaidan. You want it too much not to.”
you want her
Eva drew her tongue across her lips, slowly, and then breathed, “Kiss me.”
No, Kaidan thought.
Yes, oh god yes, shadow-Kaidan said, and took control of Kaidan's body so that he could obey her order.
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