Re: FILL: To Break A Hero (F!Shep/Kaidan) 2/?
anonymous
February 25 2014, 23:22:56 UTC
A/N: This is a partial repost from the next part, because n00b!anon is silly and didn't follow the rules, and someone was kind enough to nominate this for the People's Choice awards - so I thought everyone should see what I have to this point.
Kaidan had completely lost track of time since being brought to the Cerberus facility. The only things that happened at any sort of regular interval were his meals, and even then “regular” didn’t appear to apply. It was more like … whenever they got around to it. He wondered if that was a tactic of theirs to keep him off balance.
After taunting him on the first day, Eva - and everyone else at the facility - had left him alone with his thoughts. It didn’t take him long for him to appreciate the tactic, remembering what Matriarch Benezia had said back on Noveria about indoctrination. He started to have thoughts that weren’t his own, and the only reason he knew they weren’t his own was because they were completely antithetical to his natural thought processes. He hated Cerberus. And yet …
Cerberus is looking out for humanity. Cerberus only wants what is best for humanity. No one else is going to help us, so we have to help ourselves.
He fought it. With every ounce of mental strength that he could muster. But it hurt more each time he did it, took more effort to banish the insidious thoughts.
Six meals after his arrival, Eva Coré visited him again.
He made a half-hearted rush at her when she entered, but she deflected his attempt to pin her. Instead, within seconds he found himself pinned against the wall, Eva pressing her body against his and staring into his face. His heart started beating faster, and he wasn’t sure whether it was from fear, or close proximity to a woman. It had been a long time.
As if she was reading his mind, Eva spoke. “How long has it been since you were this close to a woman?” she asked. “Not since Shepard, two years ago, unless I miss my guess.” She took a step back, but he didn’t move. He felt like he couldn’t.
Eva ran one hand down his chest, stopping just above his navel. Kaidan wasn’t sure whether he wanted her to continue or not. He was definitely aroused, and felt like his self-control had been hammered down since arriving at the Cerberus facility. Her hand moved again, skipping his mid-section and moving to his legs, caressing the inside of his thighs - again stopping just short of his increasingly obvious erection. He still couldn’t move. He could barely think about anything short of what Eva was doing to his body. And it wasn’t even that intense. But it was putting him in mind of the last time he’d been with -
“Kaidan.”
That was Shepard’s voice. Kaidan’s head jerked forward as all the blood rushed away, right down to his now fully erect cock. He looked around, but there was no one there but him and Eva. Had he been hallucinating? That was not a good sign.
Re: FILL: To Break A Hero (F!Shep/Kaidan) 2.5/?
anonymous
February 25 2014, 23:24:33 UTC
“You want this, Kaidan,” Shepard’s voice said again, and this time he found the source. Eva. Somehow she was making herself sound like Shepard. “Your cock is responding to the sound of its mistress’ voice.”
There were thoughts that weren’t his own in his head again, but they weren’t about Cerberus. At least, not in a broad sense. They were complementing what Eva was saying, telling him to kiss her, telling him how attracted he was to her. The thoughts were pressing on the inside of his skull. He closed his eyes and put his head back against the wall to try and shut them out. Shepard. He used her name like a talisman. He loved Shepard. He was faithful to Shepard. She’d come for him. She’d get him out of this.
Eva’s mouth closed around his penis.
Kaidan groaned loudly, part frustration, part expression of desire. He hadn’t even noticed her pulling down his loose pants. You want this, the voice in his head said, and he couldn’t push it away this time. Don’t deny yourself this pleasure. Enjoy it.
His hands plastered themselves against the wall, trying to find a grip that wasn’t there. Eva clearly knew what she was doing, flicking her tongue just so across his tip, sending violent shudders through his body. Shepard, he thought, faintly. He wanted Shepard.
You want this.
He tried to hold out as long as he could, but he inevitably came in her mouth, Shepard’s name escaping his lips as he did so. Eva swallowed it down, licking her lips like a cat with a bowl of cream as she stood.
“Shepard’s not coming,” she said, in her own voice. Or what Kaidan assumed was hers, since she could apparently change it at will. “She’s not going to save you from this. She doesn’t even know you’re here. No one can save you, Kaidan. You’ll be ours before too long. Mine … and the Illusive Man’s.” She patted his cheek before reaching down to pull his pants back up.
“I’ll be seeing you again soon,” she said as she turned to leave. Kaidan couldn’t even think about moving. He just watched her go, the door closing behind her.
Kaidan had completely lost track of time since being brought to the Cerberus facility. The only things that happened at any sort of regular interval were his meals, and even then “regular” didn’t appear to apply. It was more like … whenever they got around to it. He wondered if that was a tactic of theirs to keep him off balance.
After taunting him on the first day, Eva - and everyone else at the facility - had left him alone with his thoughts. It didn’t take him long for him to appreciate the tactic, remembering what Matriarch Benezia had said back on Noveria about indoctrination. He started to have thoughts that weren’t his own, and the only reason he knew they weren’t his own was because they were completely antithetical to his natural thought processes. He hated Cerberus. And yet …
Cerberus is looking out for humanity. Cerberus only wants what is best for humanity. No one else is going to help us, so we have to help ourselves.
He fought it. With every ounce of mental strength that he could muster. But it hurt more each time he did it, took more effort to banish the insidious thoughts.
Six meals after his arrival, Eva Coré visited him again.
He made a half-hearted rush at her when she entered, but she deflected his attempt to pin her. Instead, within seconds he found himself pinned against the wall, Eva pressing her body against his and staring into his face. His heart started beating faster, and he wasn’t sure whether it was from fear, or close proximity to a woman. It had been a long time.
As if she was reading his mind, Eva spoke. “How long has it been since you were this close to a woman?” she asked. “Not since Shepard, two years ago, unless I miss my guess.” She took a step back, but he didn’t move. He felt like he couldn’t.
Eva ran one hand down his chest, stopping just above his navel. Kaidan wasn’t sure whether he wanted her to continue or not. He was definitely aroused, and felt like his self-control had been hammered down since arriving at the Cerberus facility. Her hand moved again, skipping his mid-section and moving to his legs, caressing the inside of his thighs - again stopping just short of his increasingly obvious erection. He still couldn’t move. He could barely think about anything short of what Eva was doing to his body. And it wasn’t even that intense. But it was putting him in mind of the last time he’d been with -
“Kaidan.”
That was Shepard’s voice. Kaidan’s head jerked forward as all the blood rushed away, right down to his now fully erect cock. He looked around, but there was no one there but him and Eva. Had he been hallucinating? That was not a good sign.
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“You want this, Kaidan,” Shepard’s voice said again, and this time he found the source. Eva. Somehow she was making herself sound like Shepard. “Your cock is responding to the sound of its mistress’ voice.”
There were thoughts that weren’t his own in his head again, but they weren’t about Cerberus. At least, not in a broad sense. They were complementing what Eva was saying, telling him to kiss her, telling him how attracted he was to her. The thoughts were pressing on the inside of his skull. He closed his eyes and put his head back against the wall to try and shut them out. Shepard. He used her name like a talisman. He loved Shepard. He was faithful to Shepard. She’d come for him. She’d get him out of this.
Eva’s mouth closed around his penis.
Kaidan groaned loudly, part frustration, part expression of desire. He hadn’t even noticed her pulling down his loose pants. You want this, the voice in his head said, and he couldn’t push it away this time. Don’t deny yourself this pleasure. Enjoy it.
His hands plastered themselves against the wall, trying to find a grip that wasn’t there. Eva clearly knew what she was doing, flicking her tongue just so across his tip, sending violent shudders through his body. Shepard, he thought, faintly. He wanted Shepard.
You want this.
He tried to hold out as long as he could, but he inevitably came in her mouth, Shepard’s name escaping his lips as he did so. Eva swallowed it down, licking her lips like a cat with a bowl of cream as she stood.
“Shepard’s not coming,” she said, in her own voice. Or what Kaidan assumed was hers, since she could apparently change it at will. “She’s not going to save you from this. She doesn’t even know you’re here. No one can save you, Kaidan. You’ll be ours before too long. Mine … and the Illusive Man’s.” She patted his cheek before reaching down to pull his pants back up.
“I’ll be seeing you again soon,” she said as she turned to leave. Kaidan couldn’t even think about moving. He just watched her go, the door closing behind her.
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