Almost Doesn't Count 4B/?
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January 19 2014, 17:39:45 UTC
Part 4B
He was suddenly aware of his heartbeat echoing in his head and a different kind of cold spreading from his chest outward. < i>I need to tell him I love him, that I can’t stop myself from panicking, that if we just keep trying eventually I’ll be able to. And I need to tell him now before I've fucked this up and he never wants me to touch him again, before it's too late.
“Nihlus I-“ His throat closed over the words. Tell him damn it. “I’m sorry I-“
The younger man leaned over him and touched their foreplates together with gentle pressure. “You don’t need to explain yourself,” He said, stilling leaning on him. “It means a lot that you’re willing to try and I’m glad you feel you can trust me enough to do so.”
Saren wrapped his hand around the back of Nihlus’ neck to hold that contact. Tell him. Now. “I…” Damn it. “I trust you more than most.”
“I’m glad.” The younger man said simply and slipped out of his hold to stand beside the bed. “I’m…going to shower and work this out myself.”
He’s shutting me out. Saren thought, only recognizing the behavior because it was something he did too. “No.” He said perhaps a little too quickly and with too much force, grabbing Nihlus’ hand. He wasn’t about to let a wall of things left unspoken and unaddressed come up between them like it had with Ieryan. Saren was not going to lose Nihlus because of his stupid fear. “Let me help you.”
One mandible flicked outward and the young man looked at him warily before replying in flat tones. “You don’t have to Saren.”
“I want to.” And he did, he couldn’t let Nihlus remain unsatisfied, not with the way the younger man’s cock jutted eagerly outward and was so slick with desire that Saren was sure he was dripping. It made his mouth water and his body tightened in a pleasant way. Next time I swear I won’t stop him.
Saren tugged his arm until Nihlus sat down and then he climbed off the bed to kneel between his feet. If he couldn’t tell the younger man how he felt without his mouth spontaneously sealing shut, he’d show him instead. The younger man looked down at him and his mouth parted as he breathed in short bursts. He knew exactly what Saren was going to do to him and he was anxious for it to begin. He didn’t have to wait more than a few heartbeats.
He was suddenly aware of his heartbeat echoing in his head and a different kind of cold spreading from his chest outward. < i>I need to tell him I love him, that I can’t stop myself from panicking, that if we just keep trying eventually I’ll be able to. And I need to tell him now before I've fucked this up and he never wants me to touch him again, before it's too late.
“Nihlus I-“ His throat closed over the words. Tell him damn it. “I’m sorry I-“
The younger man leaned over him and touched their foreplates together with gentle pressure. “You don’t need to explain yourself,” He said, stilling leaning on him. “It means a lot that you’re willing to try and I’m glad you feel you can trust me enough to do so.”
Saren wrapped his hand around the back of Nihlus’ neck to hold that contact. Tell him. Now. “I…” Damn it. “I trust you more than most.”
“I’m glad.” The younger man said simply and slipped out of his hold to stand beside the bed. “I’m…going to shower and work this out myself.”
He’s shutting me out. Saren thought, only recognizing the behavior because it was something he did too. “No.” He said perhaps a little too quickly and with too much force, grabbing Nihlus’ hand. He wasn’t about to let a wall of things left unspoken and unaddressed come up between them like it had with Ieryan. Saren was not going to lose Nihlus because of his stupid fear. “Let me help you.”
One mandible flicked outward and the young man looked at him warily before replying in flat tones. “You don’t have to Saren.”
“I want to.” And he did, he couldn’t let Nihlus remain unsatisfied, not with the way the younger man’s cock jutted eagerly outward and was so slick with desire that Saren was sure he was dripping. It made his mouth water and his body tightened in a pleasant way. Next time I swear I won’t stop him.
Saren tugged his arm until Nihlus sat down and then he climbed off the bed to kneel between his feet. If he couldn’t tell the younger man how he felt without his mouth spontaneously sealing shut, he’d show him instead. The younger man looked down at him and his mouth parted as he breathed in short bursts. He knew exactly what Saren was going to do to him and he was anxious for it to begin. He didn’t have to wait more than a few heartbeats.
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