Unpretty.
School is draining my self-esteem, half of my confidence and I feel extremely self-conscious, especially today. House (homeroom) is awfully awkward. At least for me. I don't really talk to many people there besides Paul, everyone else is rather eh. So this is incredibly boring for me, not to mention a tad bit stressful. Because this is how I am. And the people on the bus are fucking obnoxious. The underclassman get worse every year. I am sure that many people think that, but, it is indeed the truth. Fr. Dan is awesome however, and I really enjoy philosophy. Psychology shall be interesting. I'm debating whether or not to ask if I can read American Psycho for it. (Creepily enough I went to look for a synopsis and a girl named Jess reviewed it... and used the term "pure brilliance" [a favorite of mine], I thought that was a bit funny...)That would be rather awesome, I think. I feel extremely jealous lately with the males I am attracted to. And there are several of them, which I know would want nothing to do with me other than to be friends. Or nothing, really. But my mind wanders to them nonetheless. I did not need to change my schedule for AP Art or Drawing & Painting III; but of course that was because it would have been impossible, since I have AP Bio period 3 then, which is immovable, and the only DPIII class is then. But we found a compromise that will hopefully be acceptable. I no longer have a study hall (replaced by AP Art/DPIII) which is fine with me. Even if I had wanted to I would not be able to get work done. I get too distracted. I have been zoning out a lot lately; I also feel as if I am getting sick--both of these things caused by lack of sleep, I am quite certain. Something I can never seem to get enough of, even if I sleep for a decent amount of time. And now Alice, one of my four cats is sniffing my face and unconveniently located in front of the computer...