My mind is an epic clusterfuck...
I'm so fucking bored. I really, really need a job. But there isn't anything I can find that I want to do. Of course that's the way it is I guess. I'm far too picky for my own good. And then there's this thing... That I'm dealing with. Thing/person/mind going all which-ways... and I am confused. As per usual. Or more than usual? Who knows. And I guess I'll be going to SU first, then transfer? It sounds good. Because I should stay here for now. Figure things out more, though I KNOW what I want to do... I still have a lot of figuring out to do. And the more stability and understanding I have the better. And fuckall I'm a senior now basically. That will be weird because it felt like I was just a fucking skippy. Ironic how I hated the word "fuck" when I was a skippy... Then I became an 8th grader... and I started using the word a lot. Pfft. Lame-o that I was. I'm still a bit lame now, but that's okay for the most part I s'pose. The mass confusion is killing my brain cells and my sanity. This boredom killing me and I need people right now. But I guess it's a bit too early to call people...?
I wish I could go back to the Adirondacks, but with a good book that I'm not halfway through this time. And commune with nature on a rock. Haha. I miss the trees, this semi-urban-ness is crushing my nature-y soul. I miss staying up past 11 staring at the sky and moon and all the darkness, surrounded by the calm of black waters and the loons. I really do miss it, so much...
I wish I could go back to the Adirondacks, but with a good book that I'm not halfway through this time. And commune with nature on a rock. Haha. I miss the trees, this semi-urban-ness is crushing my nature-y soul. I miss staying up past 11 staring at the sky and moon and all the darkness, surrounded by the calm of black waters and the loons. I really do miss it, so much...