what a night!
tonight....first we had fusion and then some of us went to famous daves for some ice cream. that was fun. then we went to sonic and wow...it was like life changing. me and brooke stevenson talked for like an hour. and im sure we would have kept going on for hours if we didnt have curfew...gay. but i LOVE that girl! she relates to me soo well..we had basically the same words flowing out of our mouths. Tonight was the first night that someone has actually understood me about some stuff that happened recently. before i had to just get past it on my own...like i had people to talk to and they were there for me and i love them for that but..they couldnt relate..ya know? NOW i can talk to someone about it...that makes me soo happy. and God had a plan for all this. maybe he wanted me to turn to him and rely on him fully without having another actual person to talk to...and now that i turned to Him...he's now given me someone else...im so happy that we got to talk tonight. like shes my lifesaver. and talking about it with her is making things easier for me. i didnt think anyone out there understood what i was going through. and how hard it was for me...and she's actually been there. she knows exactly how i feel. and maybe God was just waiting for us to hang out becuase she went through the same thing after i did..if we had met any sooner we wouldn't have had the conversation that we did. AND shes going to camp with us which is like AMAZING! i was kinda stuck in a dry spot but i just feel at peace about alot of stuff now..and camp, wow, i know its going to change my life. its just what i need at this point. God's awesome and im so thankful that i got to hang out with Brooke tonight! its a new buding friendship.... :)!!
but having talked with her tonight...ive realized that with everything i went through...God taught me so much through it. i realized it before...but talking about it with her made me realize it even more. and ive learned not to spread your heart too thin, guard it.