LIKE SHEEP TO THE RHYTHM OF THE WAR DRUUUUUMMMS!
Okies, okies. It's been too long since I updated. I know. You're all thrilled now. XD Right.
New things:
-Ice Storm(shush, I know it was ages ago, okay? I said it had been a long time)
-Dumb sheep(the sheep aren't new. But their expressions might be. And remember the lamb I helped bottle feed? My baby? SHE IS SO THE CUTEST. And she leaps up in this totally adorable way when she's happy. Kicking her legs out in all directions and twisting her fluffy white body sideways. It's LOLable)
-A very good friend of mine has a boyfriend now. ;)
-And so does another good friend of mine! D: ZOMIGOSH YARLY!?
-I've been going to this weekly Youth Group thing, and it's really cool so far. :) I went the first time with Ally(my cousin, remember?) and her sister, as well as MTM. If I hadn't gone, none of them would have. See what I have to deal with? A bunch of scaredy-cats. *pokes them*
-I have a headache. Ouch.
Anyways, met a girl at the Youth Group(daughter of the youth pastor. Go figure. XD) who within five minutes of knowing me was talking about starting a Christian band with me. As soon as she heard we both played piano. XD Silly enthusiastic peoples, you make me smile.
Youth Group has a dancing session in the beginning, learning interpretive dance routines to Christian songs, which is fun to watch, but I feel no desire to join. I don't express myself through dance. I choose other means, you know?
Okay, so a little testimonial-type thingy... there's this girl at the Youth Group. She seemed a little snarky, and was talking bad about the awesome youth band we have(one of the members MTM is starting to favor already), saying they were 'freaks and drummers' or something. I didn't want to be mean to her or judge her or anything, since I know nothing about her, but I didn't go seeking out her acquaintance, you know?
Well, sometimes God plans amusing and strange things to you that you just have to smile at. This week she came up to me out of the blue and started showing me her ringtones on her cell phone.(Why? I dunno...teens are random) She said she could only stand one song, and it was her ringtone, etc...I tried not to mention that in the three months I HAD my laptop, I had acquired several hundred songs at least...
Then she hands me this notebook, showing me this random-sounding piece of writing. I didn't get what it said - it seemed to be a note to someone. I dunno. *shrug* I didn't comment much, but responded alright I suppose. This girl was trying my patience, but I told myself not to judge or be mean. But I couldn't help being a little cold - I'm not naturally a rambler in public, really, preferring not to say anything unless I mean it or need to -and lately, I've been struggling with people I meet just taking-taking-taking from me, and leading me down a road of drama. They force me unknowingly into a ring of being-in-the-middle I can't escape from.
During the ministry-period tonight, she sent the notebook back to me, and a pen. It basically said she knew this guy at school who had a girlfriend, but said he loved HER, and she told him she loved him back, and was that wrong of her to love him?
.....0_o
Why, I wondered, is this nearly complete stranger asking me for relationship advice? GG, when you say my talent is encouragement, I had no idea the implications such a 'spiritual gift' would bring. Why do people ask ME for advice? I've never dated, had a boyfriend, or even been on a date. The only time my lips ever kissed a boy, I shoved him over and ran away shouting at him. I holed myself up reading most of my young life, and I loved it. I don't do relationships or seek people out I can give advice to. But for some reason, people must get the feeling I know something they don't.
Obviously, I wrote her back a note with the most sensible answer, in as simple and yet gentle a term as I could. "Trust and faithfulness are VERY big and important in a relationship. If he does this to his current gf, staring a relationship with you when he's still in a relationship with her, why wouldn't he do that to you? If he does love you, like he says, he would leave her and start dating you. It isn't wrong to love a person - but if he loves you he should know she isn't right for him, and would date YOU." Or something like that. She started writing a note back to me, as I tried to listen to the sermon and stop asking myself what I had said to make her think I was the younger, female version of Dr. Phil, or whatever.
She didn't finish her note before we were let out, and she said that she got exactly what I was trying to say, and something else I didn't hear all the way. Anyways, it was weird, and kind of funny. Perfect strangers are asking me how to deal with things. I've never seen her asking other people these kinds of things, so I don't think she's just gushing to anyone nearby...but it was odd.
GG, that situation I emailed you about is going okay, btw. There was a text or two, but I'm trying not to initiate anything extra or questionable. A bit stand-offish, I guess. But that's the only way I see to handle it. The problem is similar to above - I don't ASK to give them advice, or ASK about their lives. They just COME to me, and I don't want to just say, "No, bugger off, won't ya?"
So I guess I'll just stay a little colder to them, or something. I don't need to give advice, and I don't need other people to tell me what's wrong with me, or anything like that. I just...I like to be myself, and sometimes to be by myself. *shrug* I know who I don't want to associate with, but they just FOLLOW me around.
Anyways. CONGRATS TO MY TWO FRIENDS GG AND MOONY. I STILL LOVE YOU MORE THAN HE DOES. BWAHAHAHAHA. <333
Now I may go to Gramma's and play the wii all night. Relationship free, and just fine that way. I feel like I have to remind everyone that. Because it's true. And people seem to be a bit afraid that I'll get depressed or something if I don't have the same joy of a relationship that they do. It's true - I'm jealous that the guy'll get more time with you than I'll get. But that doesn't mean I don't like him, or that I'll ever stop loving you. :) Or that I'm unhappy.
Next time, remind me to tell you all the story of "Sheets of Egyptian Cotton", okay? It's a really sweet story, and a bit funny. ^.^
New things:
-Ice Storm(shush, I know it was ages ago, okay? I said it had been a long time)
-Dumb sheep(the sheep aren't new. But their expressions might be. And remember the lamb I helped bottle feed? My baby? SHE IS SO THE CUTEST. And she leaps up in this totally adorable way when she's happy. Kicking her legs out in all directions and twisting her fluffy white body sideways. It's LOLable)
-A very good friend of mine has a boyfriend now. ;)
-And so does another good friend of mine! D: ZOMIGOSH YARLY!?
-I've been going to this weekly Youth Group thing, and it's really cool so far. :) I went the first time with Ally(my cousin, remember?) and her sister, as well as MTM. If I hadn't gone, none of them would have. See what I have to deal with? A bunch of scaredy-cats. *pokes them*
-I have a headache. Ouch.
Anyways, met a girl at the Youth Group(daughter of the youth pastor. Go figure. XD) who within five minutes of knowing me was talking about starting a Christian band with me. As soon as she heard we both played piano. XD Silly enthusiastic peoples, you make me smile.
Youth Group has a dancing session in the beginning, learning interpretive dance routines to Christian songs, which is fun to watch, but I feel no desire to join. I don't express myself through dance. I choose other means, you know?
Okay, so a little testimonial-type thingy... there's this girl at the Youth Group. She seemed a little snarky, and was talking bad about the awesome youth band we have(one of the members MTM is starting to favor already), saying they were 'freaks and drummers' or something. I didn't want to be mean to her or judge her or anything, since I know nothing about her, but I didn't go seeking out her acquaintance, you know?
Well, sometimes God plans amusing and strange things to you that you just have to smile at. This week she came up to me out of the blue and started showing me her ringtones on her cell phone.(Why? I dunno...teens are random) She said she could only stand one song, and it was her ringtone, etc...I tried not to mention that in the three months I HAD my laptop, I had acquired several hundred songs at least...
Then she hands me this notebook, showing me this random-sounding piece of writing. I didn't get what it said - it seemed to be a note to someone. I dunno. *shrug* I didn't comment much, but responded alright I suppose. This girl was trying my patience, but I told myself not to judge or be mean. But I couldn't help being a little cold - I'm not naturally a rambler in public, really, preferring not to say anything unless I mean it or need to -and lately, I've been struggling with people I meet just taking-taking-taking from me, and leading me down a road of drama. They force me unknowingly into a ring of being-in-the-middle I can't escape from.
During the ministry-period tonight, she sent the notebook back to me, and a pen. It basically said she knew this guy at school who had a girlfriend, but said he loved HER, and she told him she loved him back, and was that wrong of her to love him?
.....0_o
Why, I wondered, is this nearly complete stranger asking me for relationship advice? GG, when you say my talent is encouragement, I had no idea the implications such a 'spiritual gift' would bring. Why do people ask ME for advice? I've never dated, had a boyfriend, or even been on a date. The only time my lips ever kissed a boy, I shoved him over and ran away shouting at him. I holed myself up reading most of my young life, and I loved it. I don't do relationships or seek people out I can give advice to. But for some reason, people must get the feeling I know something they don't.
Obviously, I wrote her back a note with the most sensible answer, in as simple and yet gentle a term as I could. "Trust and faithfulness are VERY big and important in a relationship. If he does this to his current gf, staring a relationship with you when he's still in a relationship with her, why wouldn't he do that to you? If he does love you, like he says, he would leave her and start dating you. It isn't wrong to love a person - but if he loves you he should know she isn't right for him, and would date YOU." Or something like that. She started writing a note back to me, as I tried to listen to the sermon and stop asking myself what I had said to make her think I was the younger, female version of Dr. Phil, or whatever.
She didn't finish her note before we were let out, and she said that she got exactly what I was trying to say, and something else I didn't hear all the way. Anyways, it was weird, and kind of funny. Perfect strangers are asking me how to deal with things. I've never seen her asking other people these kinds of things, so I don't think she's just gushing to anyone nearby...but it was odd.
GG, that situation I emailed you about is going okay, btw. There was a text or two, but I'm trying not to initiate anything extra or questionable. A bit stand-offish, I guess. But that's the only way I see to handle it. The problem is similar to above - I don't ASK to give them advice, or ASK about their lives. They just COME to me, and I don't want to just say, "No, bugger off, won't ya?"
So I guess I'll just stay a little colder to them, or something. I don't need to give advice, and I don't need other people to tell me what's wrong with me, or anything like that. I just...I like to be myself, and sometimes to be by myself. *shrug* I know who I don't want to associate with, but they just FOLLOW me around.
Anyways. CONGRATS TO MY TWO FRIENDS GG AND MOONY. I STILL LOVE YOU MORE THAN HE DOES. BWAHAHAHAHA. <333
Now I may go to Gramma's and play the wii all night. Relationship free, and just fine that way. I feel like I have to remind everyone that. Because it's true. And people seem to be a bit afraid that I'll get depressed or something if I don't have the same joy of a relationship that they do. It's true - I'm jealous that the guy'll get more time with you than I'll get. But that doesn't mean I don't like him, or that I'll ever stop loving you. :) Or that I'm unhappy.
Next time, remind me to tell you all the story of "Sheets of Egyptian Cotton", okay? It's a really sweet story, and a bit funny. ^.^