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[masked_hysteria]

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that was the rough draft from a post i was going to post yesterday.

Anyway.

Yeah just in case no one knew no i dont do that crap anymore.

Not because I dont like it.

But because I can't stand the people.

I hate parties. Even when the party is full of people I know
I hate parties.

So, I just quit. No real reason. I'm just tired.

Anyway.

I feel like the world's biggest failure. I'm too fat too stupid too much of a failure no matter how much I try I will fail because that is who i am all around sucky person who can't do anything right for once can't i just do something right...

Know how awesome I am?
Everytime I hang out with my boyfriend he falls asleep.

Yeah, I can tell I'm simply fucking amazing.

I am soporific down to my very core

God , what happened to me.

I feel like...like I shouldn't even try and stay clean, anymore...I should just go out to where I know I'll be welcomed, they won't care how much what I do, and eventually my heart will just stop beating.

But of course, I'm just too damn lazy.

God, what happened to me.

I haven't felt this defeated in

....a long time.

...and such.

I am a loser

~!~The More You Know~!~