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[14:37] cts_359: so, i have news!
[14:38] v4r14bl3: wassat
[14:38] cts_359: i found a house
[14:38] v4r14bl3: haha, awesome
[14:39] v4r14bl3: did you and travis find the 3rd person?
[14:39] cts_359: nope
[14:39] cts_359: travis sucks
[14:39] v4r14bl3: ahh
[14:39] cts_359: i'm living with erica's (sorority) sister
[14:39] cts_359: actually, i found out, a whole house of erica's sisters
....
Well.
SHIT.
Seriously, HOW can one really not see that saying that would really freaking hurt their girlfriend?
THE ONE WHO IS PRACTICALLY FAMOUS FOR HAVING NO SELF ESTEEM WHATSOEVER?
THE ONE YOU HAVE TO FIGHT CONSTANTLY WITH ABOUT HOW SHE WILL ALMOST VIOLENTLY DENY ANYTHING WHAT SO EVER WHEN GIVEN A COMPLIMENT, JUST BECAUSE SHE THINKS EVERYONE IS LYING OUT THEIR DAMN TEETH?!?!!?!
argh.
Argh.
ARGH.
JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THINGS WERE ACTUALLY GOING TO BE GOOD FOR ONCE IN A FUCKING LIFETIME.
ONCE!!
JUST ONE TIME!!
ALL I ASK FOR!
BUT NOOOO
IM NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE THAT, AM I
FOR ONCE IN MY GOD DAMNED LIFE,MY DAD IS NOT TELLING ME I HATE THE WORLD SO HE HAS AN EXCUSE TO KICK ME OUT OF THE HOUSE.
FOR ONCE MY MOTHER ISNT TRYING TO TELL ME HOW MUCH MY LIFE SUCKS IN ORDER TO MAKE ME MOVE OUT THERE.
I MAY ACTUALLY BE GETTING A CAR.
BUT NOOOOO
SOMETHING HAS TO MAKE ME FEEL EVEN WORSE THEN BEFORE
JUST AS A GIANT
COSMIC
FUCKING
JOKE.
If I just had the courage to take my own life, damnit all to bloody hell, I'd do it.
I HATE YOU GOD. I HATE YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU'RE DOING. I WANT OUT OF YOUR FUCKING PLAN, AND I WANT OUT RIGHT NOW.
I DONT CARE IF I SOUND WHINY
OR EMO
OR BATSHIT CRAZY.
This hurts.
no
This...this really really hurts.
[14:38] v4r14bl3: wassat
[14:38] cts_359: i found a house
[14:38] v4r14bl3: haha, awesome
[14:39] v4r14bl3: did you and travis find the 3rd person?
[14:39] cts_359: nope
[14:39] cts_359: travis sucks
[14:39] v4r14bl3: ahh
[14:39] cts_359: i'm living with erica's (sorority) sister
[14:39] cts_359: actually, i found out, a whole house of erica's sisters
....
Well.
SHIT.
Seriously, HOW can one really not see that saying that would really freaking hurt their girlfriend?
THE ONE WHO IS PRACTICALLY FAMOUS FOR HAVING NO SELF ESTEEM WHATSOEVER?
THE ONE YOU HAVE TO FIGHT CONSTANTLY WITH ABOUT HOW SHE WILL ALMOST VIOLENTLY DENY ANYTHING WHAT SO EVER WHEN GIVEN A COMPLIMENT, JUST BECAUSE SHE THINKS EVERYONE IS LYING OUT THEIR DAMN TEETH?!?!!?!
argh.
Argh.
ARGH.
JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THINGS WERE ACTUALLY GOING TO BE GOOD FOR ONCE IN A FUCKING LIFETIME.
ONCE!!
JUST ONE TIME!!
ALL I ASK FOR!
BUT NOOOO
IM NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE THAT, AM I
FOR ONCE IN MY GOD DAMNED LIFE,MY DAD IS NOT TELLING ME I HATE THE WORLD SO HE HAS AN EXCUSE TO KICK ME OUT OF THE HOUSE.
FOR ONCE MY MOTHER ISNT TRYING TO TELL ME HOW MUCH MY LIFE SUCKS IN ORDER TO MAKE ME MOVE OUT THERE.
I MAY ACTUALLY BE GETTING A CAR.
BUT NOOOOO
SOMETHING HAS TO MAKE ME FEEL EVEN WORSE THEN BEFORE
JUST AS A GIANT
COSMIC
FUCKING
JOKE.
If I just had the courage to take my own life, damnit all to bloody hell, I'd do it.
I HATE YOU GOD. I HATE YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU'RE DOING. I WANT OUT OF YOUR FUCKING PLAN, AND I WANT OUT RIGHT NOW.
I DONT CARE IF I SOUND WHINY
OR EMO
OR BATSHIT CRAZY.
This hurts.
no
This...this really really hurts.