long one... read at ur own risk.
once again i have gone from "i dont have time to listen to this song without thinking about u" to "im sick of writing every song about u". k. yea the second lyric is from a tbs song (which i actually like tho i dont really listen to them). the first one is.. mine? k. yea probably lame. but thas what popped into my head back then.. when he wouldnt get out of it. now i dunno what happened. ive mentioned that smthng was bothering me and it still is. he's being weird (oojee, in case ur lost) but i think that i dont really like him. its just that i wanted for us to like each other bcuz... i want to have that with someone. also im not sure if a relationship will bring out the best in me or will only make me more of failure at life (if thas even possible).
also bruno "came back". actually i dunno why we havent talked for so long. it was just bad circumstances. and i think he went away but i havent talked to him for long enough to find out. he got a new cell phone and is being nice. the point is im happy to have an open and nice friend like him. and wtvr happened or why it didnt should just be ignored and not be dwelled upon longer.
hmm. another thing made me realize how lucky i am to be alive and healthy and i how i should really live life to its fullest. i wont go further on what it was.
im really trying to restrain myself from liking.. anyone. being attracted to anyone at all. especially physically bcuz we all know what that leads to. and im not saying that all guys are assholes bcuz lets face it. girls dont get guys and guys dont get girls. i dont think that all "representatives" of one sex are the same in confusing the opposite. for example, girls have a reputation for not being straighforward about what they want. i am. i swear im not a man despite what bubbles says when he's fucked.
however, there is a "hot daniel" at work and i just found out he's only 20 (i thought he was 25). and the comrade buggy-boy. then again i must restrain myself from buggy-boys. or italians. or both. shit daniel's italian i think.
k. to sum things up i dont mean to sound like jeebus but yes im feeling pretty emo lately. to sound like a normal person im... sad/pissed/blah/tired. apparently those are the only emotions emo represents. hahahaha. i read somewhere that the word "emo" doesnt even come from "emotional" but i forgot what it was and am too lazy to find it now. the point is, metal rules bitches! (random but had to say it) and all the other music too (like bsb lol).
also a random side note to make this post even longer i downloaded a 41 second bass solo (video) by Cliff Burton. to those who dunno he was the first bassist for metallica and played with them on the first three albums. he died in a car crash in 1986 (the year "master of puppets" was released) and was replaced by jason newstead (who recently left too). many fans still believe cliff was the shit and jason was nothing. i dont agree with the jason is nothing statement but cliff WAS the shit. to quote liana "the solo is orgasmic"
another random note (promise its last) i bought me another pair of drumsticks. they are heavier than my "giant matches". the wood is more dense. theyre slightly shorter. and the tip is a different shape. its triangular so to call it. meaning that when i become pro, if i ever do, i can produce 3 different sounds with 'em. theyre actually harder to play with but i like them. a lot. duh. lol.
k. i think thas mainly it. if u read this then.... wow!! thas amazing. almost as amazing as cliff's solo. yes...
also bruno "came back". actually i dunno why we havent talked for so long. it was just bad circumstances. and i think he went away but i havent talked to him for long enough to find out. he got a new cell phone and is being nice. the point is im happy to have an open and nice friend like him. and wtvr happened or why it didnt should just be ignored and not be dwelled upon longer.
hmm. another thing made me realize how lucky i am to be alive and healthy and i how i should really live life to its fullest. i wont go further on what it was.
im really trying to restrain myself from liking.. anyone. being attracted to anyone at all. especially physically bcuz we all know what that leads to. and im not saying that all guys are assholes bcuz lets face it. girls dont get guys and guys dont get girls. i dont think that all "representatives" of one sex are the same in confusing the opposite. for example, girls have a reputation for not being straighforward about what they want. i am. i swear im not a man despite what bubbles says when he's fucked.
however, there is a "hot daniel" at work and i just found out he's only 20 (i thought he was 25). and the comrade buggy-boy. then again i must restrain myself from buggy-boys. or italians. or both. shit daniel's italian i think.
k. to sum things up i dont mean to sound like jeebus but yes im feeling pretty emo lately. to sound like a normal person im... sad/pissed/blah/tired. apparently those are the only emotions emo represents. hahahaha. i read somewhere that the word "emo" doesnt even come from "emotional" but i forgot what it was and am too lazy to find it now. the point is, metal rules bitches! (random but had to say it) and all the other music too (like bsb lol).
also a random side note to make this post even longer i downloaded a 41 second bass solo (video) by Cliff Burton. to those who dunno he was the first bassist for metallica and played with them on the first three albums. he died in a car crash in 1986 (the year "master of puppets" was released) and was replaced by jason newstead (who recently left too). many fans still believe cliff was the shit and jason was nothing. i dont agree with the jason is nothing statement but cliff WAS the shit. to quote liana "the solo is orgasmic"
another random note (promise its last) i bought me another pair of drumsticks. they are heavier than my "giant matches". the wood is more dense. theyre slightly shorter. and the tip is a different shape. its triangular so to call it. meaning that when i become pro, if i ever do, i can produce 3 different sounds with 'em. theyre actually harder to play with but i like them. a lot. duh. lol.
k. i think thas mainly it. if u read this then.... wow!! thas amazing. almost as amazing as cliff's solo. yes...