"... she was not a person, but a whole kind of a person."
Stolen from Hallie's journal...
You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. ❞
1. FIRST NAME
Well, here (and probably anywhere else across the web) I use my nickname "mase" which is a made up union of my two names: María (mah-REE-ah) José (ho-SE). Literally, Mary-Joseph, which is a common spanish name and literally translated as Mary Joe. Don't call me Mary-Joseph or Mary Joe, I hate that, though.
The "ma" comes from María/Mary and "se" from José/Joseph. I've been called like that since I can remember but my cousins tell me I used to call myself "mase" when asked what my name was when I was younger because I couldn't pronounce my whole name in one go.
In Mexico, I am María José but in The States my full name is Maria-Jose Raquel (spanish for Rachel). The Raquel is a tribute to my deceased great grandmama: babushka Racquel Guttin Nitkin because Mum loved her dearly.
María/Mary -> "beloved", "love"
José/Joseph -> "he will add"
Raquel/Rachel -> "ewe"
http://www.behindthename.com
2. AGE
I was born on January 9, 1992. I'm a Capricorn.I don't believe in Astrology,
I'm 17 years old, almost of age under the Mexican goverment jurisdiction.
3. LOCATION
I've lived most of my life in Mexico City, from where my family lives and comes from. I'm the only member of the family that wasn't born in Mexico, though. I was born in The States - in "The Crescent City" or New Orleans. I lived there for two years with my parents who decided to move back to Mexico because of a job offering. By the time we had lived one and a half year in Mexico, Mum was pregnant with my brother and her and Dad were about to move back to The States where they had a better job offering in Boston. A few weeks before we left, Mum went into labor and gave birth to my younger brother Sebastian and a month later she died of a stroke so we stayed in Mexico.
4. OCCUPATION
I'm still a highschool student, coursing 5th grade but in only two more years I'm bound to enter univerity, at last! :D I'm not so sure what it is I want to study yet, seeing as I have several possible options to pick from, yet I agree with what my Dad says: "Better to not know where to choose from than to have to options at all."
I'm a very artistic person. I love painting, writing, singing, dancing, and most of all: acting. I'm passionate about theatre and cinema and that is why Acting is a possible career for me or movie-making. Working at Disney has always been a dream of mine so the latter dream-career has been fueled by this one since forever and I've always been one to appreciate the little details on animated films that come from the production team: the artists, the writers, the animators, etc. There are several downers with this choice though. Acting is such an unstable career and I'd prefer to have a more constant paycheck and work. With Animation, or Artistic Design I'm not so sure either because:
a) I can draw and all that but the problem is I'm stuck in 'manga-style' and as much as I love manga and all, I'm sick of its artistic limitations.
b) I'm working on developing and more 'realistic' style, yet, I believe I'm a little too late to pick an Art-oriented career because of my lack of flexibility, practice, or expertice. I've only got the talent and it's hardly polished. :/
Since I was little I've always wanted to become a writer. I always wrote short stories and drew pictures to go along with the story. I wrote my first "novel" when I was 10 and gave it as a birthday gift to my grandma who requested it. Two sequels followed that last one. The series name was The Jade Moon and while it was nowhere close to crossing the line between "readable literature" and "guilty pleasure entertainment" it served as a window to the type of stories I enjoy writing and reading about the most: fantasy.
I know I love writing more than many other things and I bask in its perks constantly, despite this, I've decided against the "authoress dream" as well. The money factor's everywhere for me, damn it. Although I'm sure I'll get to take the advantage of the writing!muse anywhere I go so it's not an eternal parting :].
The great dilemma is the choice of focusing on either: International Relationships or History. Luckily for me, both careers are intricately linked with one another so all's not lost. Heh. All I know is that if I do end up studying History (which is most likely) all I wish is:
a) Not end up as a teacher. I hate schools. And teaching. I want to do investigation.
b) I want to travel a lot ;3;. Especially to Europe.
I think my prime careers are excuses to go international XD.
5. PARTNER?
I'm still single. I haven't ever had a boyfriend, except for the cutesy elementary school types. In all honesty, I do want a boyfriend. I'm not desperate but I think it'd be an interesting change, a new experience (God know I'm open for those!), and you know... nice. To have someone like you in another way, one separate from family or friend love and see you in a way that makes you feel special and cared for is something I'd love to go through. And fight through, 'cause I know it's not only about kisses and hand holding. Sheesh. I'm not that naive...
6. KIDS?
I'm one of those romantics that loves the prospect of one day settling down and starting a family. Sure, by how I carry myself or deliver my points of view you could say I'm a left-wing liberal (as I've been called way too many times...) yet, I still believe child-birth is the greatest miracle, far more precious than technological advancement or scientific practicality, seen today as the 'modern conceptions of human progress'. Personally, human bonding is the only path towards evolution (Art provides this opportunity for bonding) and I always imagine with a stupid grin turning down and seeing my swollen figure and suddenly feeling as this new being, one that is residing inside me, that is part of me and my beloved and at the same time isn't, kicks and sends to me the message "I'm alive, mama." Child-bearing, for me, is the epitomy of femeninity, as retro or conservative as that may sound. I'm not saying that women must follow the "imposed" role of the home keepers because I'm actually against that position. All I'm saying is that as women we can willingly choose to enjoy that gift that was given to only us, and that is the joy of giving life to someone precious.
7. BROTHERS/SISTERS
I have a younger brother named Sebastian. He's currently 15 years old and he's the exact opposite of me. First of all, he's TALL and more easy-going, although both of us are pretty sociable, even if I'm more on the quiet side sometimes 'cause I'm considered the "intellectual"/"the artist" while he's more of the "life of the party". We complement each other :].
When we were younger we didn't get along well at all. We kicked and punched each other and fought over the smallest thing. Seb grew accostumed to being the center of attention because grandma, the rest of the family, and later our stepmother dotted on him while Dad focused more on me. I'm happy to say that changed as we grew and that we're both liked the same by our family and that stepmother is out of the picture and in the last years, all coincidentally matching with our adolescence, Seb and I have grown unusually close. Several friends that also have siblings have pointed this out to me many times. Looking back, we haven't had a real fight in forever and sure, we bicker and annoy each other as every nice brother and sister does but nothing really major and most of the times we're just chilling, talking about anything, from school to feelings to hipothetical what-ifs situation responses. Heck, we even talk while one of us is bathing and the other is just sitting there. We don't really have a problem with "personal space" and even if we like radically different things (Seb's into Biology/Medicine, Economics, and partying while I'm into Art, History, Politics, Anime, and fantasy yaoi) we share a lot of things and have others in common, so it's always varied and fun :].
8. PETS
Okay... for info on my troupe look here: http://mase992.livejournal.com/7157.html
9. LIST THE 3/5 BIGGEST THINGS GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE
1. FUCKING SCHOOL-> Going through the 'emotional phase' right now. Constantly having mood swings and light stages of depression because of stress and worrying of lowering my average because of low grades in Math, Math, Math, and Chemistry. Did I mention fucking Math?
2. FRIENDS -> Whom I love and are my everything, even if I can't show it to them. And whom I've been treating like shit recently, snapping because of my sour mood, grim prospects, and perpetual pessimism. I fear I may lose them, especially this batshit-motherfucking-crazy-turd of a schoolyear...
3. FAMILY -> It's there always and as dysfunctional as it may be most of the times, you've got to live with it.
10. PARENTS
My mother's name was Mayte Delfín. She died on August 1, 1994 of a stroke. She was a psychologist and as everyone seems to tell me a charming and clever woman. Sometimes I really miss her, as I don't really know that much about her because of certain reasons I can't really explain here. I do know that she's the sole reason why I believe in Heaven. She was born in Mexico, but her family is Jewish of Russian ascent.
My father's name is Píndaro Martínez and he's a doctor, especifically a rheumatologist, born and raised in Mexico. I know I can always count on him as he has always done so much for my brother and me, yet lately I've felt a certain distance... like there's a wall between us and that truly hurts me deeply because we've always been extremely close. He loses his temper constantly, to the point where it's uncomfortable being around him, and he simply "explodes" for ridiculous reasons. Seb and him fight daily and that wears me out. I'm not gonna say I don't explode as well when I feel he's just being patronizing. I feel his anger-bursts come because he's under a lot of pressure, he's used to being in control of things and feels he's losing that influence over us or something, that he's frustrated with life in Mexico and that he should be doing "greater stuff" for which he prepared for... I honestly don't know anymore though. He confuses me.
11. WHO ARE SOME OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS?
I've known my best friends
snappy8000and
fer392since I was in third grade in elementary school. They've put up with me ever since and honestly, I don't know how they even manage any more. I love them, like sisters but lately I've just been unable to demonstrate this because sometimes, in this hard moment I'm going true, I lose track of what they feel for me as friends, if they care about me, or as their view of me as a friend, someone special. I just snap back at them and then I can't bring myself to apologise. This a wreck really.
There's also
eapm92, my best (male) friend who started to hang out with us in highschool and with whom I can always talk about anything and free myself of dark burdens... He's really special for me as well and I love his understanding and patience. Plus, we can always go back to being immature giggling teenagers together :,].
There's other friends, there's Silver, Silva, Andrew, Stephanie, Isabel, Alfredo, Alexis, Gabriel, and Laura whom I care about deeply as well and always somehow manage to drive me nuts and an instant later, make me cry with laughter. I cherish you guys too much and I'm happy I got to meet you!
Laura especially, whom I never though I would have fun with and I have discovered how many things we share and how easy it is to open up to her. She's a wonderful person, one I know I can be "myself" with.
And my cousins, my beloved, crazy cousins who are my support and my playmates. I can't just pick one, they're all so special, such intricate and unique characters with whom I can always share laughter. Out of all of them, my cousin Mariana is whom I care for the most. We're basically made to fit one another. She understands me on such levels it's even scary sometimes, ha ha!
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Hopefully, that was interesting. Boy, am I tired XD;.
You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.
Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. ❞
1. FIRST NAME
Well, here (and probably anywhere else across the web) I use my nickname "mase" which is a made up union of my two names: María (mah-REE-ah) José (ho-SE). Literally, Mary-Joseph, which is a common spanish name and literally translated as Mary Joe. Don't call me Mary-Joseph or Mary Joe, I hate that, though.
The "ma" comes from María/Mary and "se" from José/Joseph. I've been called like that since I can remember but my cousins tell me I used to call myself "mase" when asked what my name was when I was younger because I couldn't pronounce my whole name in one go.
In Mexico, I am María José but in The States my full name is Maria-Jose Raquel (spanish for Rachel). The Raquel is a tribute to my deceased great grandmama: babushka Racquel Guttin Nitkin because Mum loved her dearly.
María/Mary -> "beloved", "love"
José/Joseph -> "he will add"
Raquel/Rachel -> "ewe"
http://www.behindthename.com
2. AGE
I was born on January 9, 1992. I'm a Capricorn.I don't believe in Astrology,
I'm 17 years old, almost of age under the Mexican goverment jurisdiction.
3. LOCATION
I've lived most of my life in Mexico City, from where my family lives and comes from. I'm the only member of the family that wasn't born in Mexico, though. I was born in The States - in "The Crescent City" or New Orleans. I lived there for two years with my parents who decided to move back to Mexico because of a job offering. By the time we had lived one and a half year in Mexico, Mum was pregnant with my brother and her and Dad were about to move back to The States where they had a better job offering in Boston. A few weeks before we left, Mum went into labor and gave birth to my younger brother Sebastian and a month later she died of a stroke so we stayed in Mexico.
4. OCCUPATION
I'm still a highschool student, coursing 5th grade but in only two more years I'm bound to enter univerity, at last! :D I'm not so sure what it is I want to study yet, seeing as I have several possible options to pick from, yet I agree with what my Dad says: "Better to not know where to choose from than to have to options at all."
I'm a very artistic person. I love painting, writing, singing, dancing, and most of all: acting. I'm passionate about theatre and cinema and that is why Acting is a possible career for me or movie-making. Working at Disney has always been a dream of mine so the latter dream-career has been fueled by this one since forever and I've always been one to appreciate the little details on animated films that come from the production team: the artists, the writers, the animators, etc. There are several downers with this choice though. Acting is such an unstable career and I'd prefer to have a more constant paycheck and work. With Animation, or Artistic Design I'm not so sure either because:
a) I can draw and all that but the problem is I'm stuck in 'manga-style' and as much as I love manga and all, I'm sick of its artistic limitations.
b) I'm working on developing and more 'realistic' style, yet, I believe I'm a little too late to pick an Art-oriented career because of my lack of flexibility, practice, or expertice. I've only got the talent and it's hardly polished. :/
Since I was little I've always wanted to become a writer. I always wrote short stories and drew pictures to go along with the story. I wrote my first "novel" when I was 10 and gave it as a birthday gift to my grandma who requested it. Two sequels followed that last one. The series name was The Jade Moon and while it was nowhere close to crossing the line between "readable literature" and "guilty pleasure entertainment" it served as a window to the type of stories I enjoy writing and reading about the most: fantasy.
I know I love writing more than many other things and I bask in its perks constantly, despite this, I've decided against the "authoress dream" as well. The money factor's everywhere for me, damn it. Although I'm sure I'll get to take the advantage of the writing!muse anywhere I go so it's not an eternal parting :].
The great dilemma is the choice of focusing on either: International Relationships or History. Luckily for me, both careers are intricately linked with one another so all's not lost. Heh. All I know is that if I do end up studying History (which is most likely) all I wish is:
a) Not end up as a teacher. I hate schools. And teaching. I want to do investigation.
b) I want to travel a lot ;3;. Especially to Europe.
I think my prime careers are excuses to go international XD.
5. PARTNER?
I'm still single. I haven't ever had a boyfriend, except for the cutesy elementary school types. In all honesty, I do want a boyfriend. I'm not desperate but I think it'd be an interesting change, a new experience (God know I'm open for those!), and you know... nice. To have someone like you in another way, one separate from family or friend love and see you in a way that makes you feel special and cared for is something I'd love to go through. And fight through, 'cause I know it's not only about kisses and hand holding. Sheesh. I'm not that naive...
6. KIDS?
I'm one of those romantics that loves the prospect of one day settling down and starting a family. Sure, by how I carry myself or deliver my points of view you could say I'm a left-wing liberal (as I've been called way too many times...) yet, I still believe child-birth is the greatest miracle, far more precious than technological advancement or scientific practicality, seen today as the 'modern conceptions of human progress'. Personally, human bonding is the only path towards evolution (Art provides this opportunity for bonding) and I always imagine with a stupid grin turning down and seeing my swollen figure and suddenly feeling as this new being, one that is residing inside me, that is part of me and my beloved and at the same time isn't, kicks and sends to me the message "I'm alive, mama." Child-bearing, for me, is the epitomy of femeninity, as retro or conservative as that may sound. I'm not saying that women must follow the "imposed" role of the home keepers because I'm actually against that position. All I'm saying is that as women we can willingly choose to enjoy that gift that was given to only us, and that is the joy of giving life to someone precious.
7. BROTHERS/SISTERS
I have a younger brother named Sebastian. He's currently 15 years old and he's the exact opposite of me. First of all, he's TALL and more easy-going, although both of us are pretty sociable, even if I'm more on the quiet side sometimes 'cause I'm considered the "intellectual"/"the artist" while he's more of the "life of the party". We complement each other :].
When we were younger we didn't get along well at all. We kicked and punched each other and fought over the smallest thing. Seb grew accostumed to being the center of attention because grandma, the rest of the family, and later our stepmother dotted on him while Dad focused more on me. I'm happy to say that changed as we grew and that we're both liked the same by our family and that stepmother is out of the picture and in the last years, all coincidentally matching with our adolescence, Seb and I have grown unusually close. Several friends that also have siblings have pointed this out to me many times. Looking back, we haven't had a real fight in forever and sure, we bicker and annoy each other as every nice brother and sister does but nothing really major and most of the times we're just chilling, talking about anything, from school to feelings to hipothetical what-ifs situation responses. Heck, we even talk while one of us is bathing and the other is just sitting there. We don't really have a problem with "personal space" and even if we like radically different things (Seb's into Biology/Medicine, Economics, and partying while I'm into Art, History, Politics, Anime, and fantasy yaoi) we share a lot of things and have others in common, so it's always varied and fun :].
8. PETS
Okay... for info on my troupe look here: http://mase992.livejournal.com/7157.html
9. LIST THE 3/5 BIGGEST THINGS GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE
1. FUCKING SCHOOL-> Going through the 'emotional phase' right now. Constantly having mood swings and light stages of depression because of stress and worrying of lowering my average because of low grades in Math, Math, Math, and Chemistry. Did I mention fucking Math?
2. FRIENDS -> Whom I love and are my everything, even if I can't show it to them. And whom I've been treating like shit recently, snapping because of my sour mood, grim prospects, and perpetual pessimism. I fear I may lose them, especially this batshit-motherfucking-crazy-turd of a schoolyear...
3. FAMILY -> It's there always and as dysfunctional as it may be most of the times, you've got to live with it.
10. PARENTS
My mother's name was Mayte Delfín. She died on August 1, 1994 of a stroke. She was a psychologist and as everyone seems to tell me a charming and clever woman. Sometimes I really miss her, as I don't really know that much about her because of certain reasons I can't really explain here. I do know that she's the sole reason why I believe in Heaven. She was born in Mexico, but her family is Jewish of Russian ascent.
My father's name is Píndaro Martínez and he's a doctor, especifically a rheumatologist, born and raised in Mexico. I know I can always count on him as he has always done so much for my brother and me, yet lately I've felt a certain distance... like there's a wall between us and that truly hurts me deeply because we've always been extremely close. He loses his temper constantly, to the point where it's uncomfortable being around him, and he simply "explodes" for ridiculous reasons. Seb and him fight daily and that wears me out. I'm not gonna say I don't explode as well when I feel he's just being patronizing. I feel his anger-bursts come because he's under a lot of pressure, he's used to being in control of things and feels he's losing that influence over us or something, that he's frustrated with life in Mexico and that he should be doing "greater stuff" for which he prepared for... I honestly don't know anymore though. He confuses me.
11. WHO ARE SOME OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS?
I've known my best friends
snappy8000and
fer392since I was in third grade in elementary school. They've put up with me ever since and honestly, I don't know how they even manage any more. I love them, like sisters but lately I've just been unable to demonstrate this because sometimes, in this hard moment I'm going true, I lose track of what they feel for me as friends, if they care about me, or as their view of me as a friend, someone special. I just snap back at them and then I can't bring myself to apologise. This a wreck really.
There's also
eapm92, my best (male) friend who started to hang out with us in highschool and with whom I can always talk about anything and free myself of dark burdens... He's really special for me as well and I love his understanding and patience. Plus, we can always go back to being immature giggling teenagers together :,].
There's other friends, there's Silver, Silva, Andrew, Stephanie, Isabel, Alfredo, Alexis, Gabriel, and Laura whom I care about deeply as well and always somehow manage to drive me nuts and an instant later, make me cry with laughter. I cherish you guys too much and I'm happy I got to meet you!
Laura especially, whom I never though I would have fun with and I have discovered how many things we share and how easy it is to open up to her. She's a wonderful person, one I know I can be "myself" with.
And my cousins, my beloved, crazy cousins who are my support and my playmates. I can't just pick one, they're all so special, such intricate and unique characters with whom I can always share laughter. Out of all of them, my cousin Mariana is whom I care for the most. We're basically made to fit one another. She understands me on such levels it's even scary sometimes, ha ha!
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Hopefully, that was interesting. Boy, am I tired XD;.