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Archaea, A print by Oliver Wetter
Archaea, A print by Oliver Wetter
Dreams suck. I've dreamt 4 days in a row of a former love, and it's very disheartening because I do not love this man anymore and it pisses me off that these god-aweful dreams of him continue to haunt me 10 years later. Oh, back then I was young and blind and life was so free and wild........It is amazing that I still remember every crease in his skin, every wicked smile, every good time and how his love for me actually brought him to his knees in tears..........oh, such a long story.......but why must I be haunted by him? I want nothing to do with him from a sexual or comforting zone -- so why these dreams.....?
Uuuh. Well, on a positive note, I love my new home (not my house, just my home) - and am so nervous. As my fingers anxiously type a business plan in a frantic mode and I change this and change that -- and stress whether the banks will give me the money I want to be a business owner. Even with a down-payment, it's so incredibly intense. Fucking stressful. I hate stressing. I only want to share this beautiful time of my life and think of the next journey rather than stress on dreaming about an ex that only chewed my heart up, spit it out, and left me to die while begging me back.