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that entry down there.... ya know the one below this one. i just..found? and its old. im actually wearing the shirt i got from the yeah yeah yeahs show right now. that show was like 3 weeks ago. lol.
anyways. everytime i come back to livejournal i like to read all of my old entries. or atleast a few of them just to see where i was when. i came upon an entry that was made a year ago yesterday and it was kind of cute. talking about seasons changing and what i hope for for the winter and i have absolutley no idea what i want now. i year later..and more lost than ever.
all i want is a routine. i want to be healthy and intelligent and happy. i dont want any particular thing or person. everythings a bit too ambiguous for that now.
im just wishing right now more then anything that i get that job. so i can make big moolah so i will have money to have a place to stay when my mom finally abandones me. i still can't believe i will be parentless in my own city. its like i went off to college and i didnt even have to go anywhere. almost cool. and pretty scary. after i get this job or some job i will feel much better. just the instability is killing me. makes me nervous to even type about it.
oh green world....
anyways. everytime i come back to livejournal i like to read all of my old entries. or atleast a few of them just to see where i was when. i came upon an entry that was made a year ago yesterday and it was kind of cute. talking about seasons changing and what i hope for for the winter and i have absolutley no idea what i want now. i year later..and more lost than ever.
all i want is a routine. i want to be healthy and intelligent and happy. i dont want any particular thing or person. everythings a bit too ambiguous for that now.
im just wishing right now more then anything that i get that job. so i can make big moolah so i will have money to have a place to stay when my mom finally abandones me. i still can't believe i will be parentless in my own city. its like i went off to college and i didnt even have to go anywhere. almost cool. and pretty scary. after i get this job or some job i will feel much better. just the instability is killing me. makes me nervous to even type about it.
oh green world....