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[marzycielka]

I totally messed up my sleeping patterns lately - bothered alternatively by some pretty vivid nightmares (one caused me to wake up screaming - I was on the far side of  the other room in three seconds flat... afterwards I barred the door to my bedroom and stayed out of it for a week!) and bouts of insomnia, I catch whatever sleep whenever I can. as

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[upsa_daisy]

Aw man honey I'm so sorry about your messed up sleep. Not funny :/ And wow that must have been a serious nightmare there :O *scares away all evil from your appartment*

Placebo is great, yes :D And I see you managed to mix your moodthemes ;D

Hope you'll get through the day! *hugs*

[marzycielka]

I generally have some really vivid dreams lately - yes, mostly of nightmarish nature but two days ago I woke up giggling O.o I just don't know what's going on with me - what changed that suddenly I remember so many of my dreams so clearly and can sometimes mistake them for reality (that's what happened with THE nightmare :/)? btw, last night you were in my vivid dream! and I assure you, you weren't responsible for nightmare parts of it :).

messed up sleep is partly due to these dreams, partly due to stress, as I already wrote you... no fun, definitely *sighs*

I don't know that many Placebo songs, but the ones I do know, I like :).

'And I see you managed to mix your moodthemes ;D'
yes, I did :D. it's of course totally by accident, that I got Dean on this entry ;).

the day is not bad, though I am sleepy... but I have only an hour to go, so I should be okay.

[upsa_daisy]

OH! Phew, I'm just SO glad I wasn't responsible for any nightmares :{ What did I do? ;)

I had phases too where I remembered my dreams pretty good almost every night... and then there are these other phases like right now, where I can't remember anything for weeks.
When I still did pharmaceutics I had nightmares very often... that obviously was a sign, lol.
Do you think your nightmares could have something to do with the PhD thoughts?

[marzycielka]

first - I love your avi! so cute! :D

[upsa_daisy]

LMFAO!! Ok you know that I'm not laughing about the nightmare part, but the rest? Oh sweet heaven that's just too funny =D

The whole cover up story is really strange, but the rest makes sense to me. It sounds like this could be PhD related - all the others are ready (already dressed), but you are still unprepared (not even found a dress yet), and when you try to get ready (found a dress and got dressed), you fear that you'll "fail" or won't be as good as the others (the white socks etc). Oh dear... I can imagine what stress that must be *hugs tight*

Do you need the PhD for your becoming a judge later?

Hope you will sleep better this night ♥

ps: weee! I thought you'd like the icon :D

[marzycielka]

oh wow, I didn't even think about analyzing it like that O.O. sounds plausible too! *bows*

technically I don't NEED PhD to become a judge but it would increase my chances... there is also this other thing - even WITH PhD the chances of becoming a judge aren't apparently that great... I still hope it won't be so bad, but some of the other assistants started talking about quitting and finding place in private business - the sheer idea freaks me out, because I LOVE working in public sector. I can't imagine having to regularly work in ungodly hours for YEARS! I just can't stand such a thought. but because of the others such thoughts are also swimming in my head and it's SO not helping with the sleep issues :/

oh, I hope I'll sleep tonight too, but... eh, it's after midnight and the sleep seems far off. I'm about to start SPN therapy again... oh, btw - most probably I'll be able to get S1 to you soon (I know - you were holding your breath in anticipation :P).

sweet dreams, hon *squishes*