language problems
I noticed something peculiar today. usually I'm able to switch between Polish and English quite fluently, both in speech and in thought. of course there are some areas of my life that cause me to think/speak/react more in English (mainly fandom related) or in Polish (work, everday life). in any case, it would be more natural, if in some stressful situations I turned solely to my mother tongue, right?
apparently not.
a few hours ago I became seriously annoyed. okay, more 'pissed off' than 'annoyed', actually. to be honest I had trouble sleeping because I was so angry and to this moment I'm basically oozing aggression. don't worry, I think that the reason for it will dissipate during the day and I'll be okay again, but for now I'm scaring off the leaflet people in the streets - they retreat when they see me :P.
anyway, that's not the point of this entry.
the point is, that with some surprise I noticed that when I'm VERY pissed off, I turn to English completely and have trouble switching to Polish. I rant in my head in English and I want to scream in English and so on. I literally have to force myself to use Polish! it's... weird.
*confused*
apparently not.
a few hours ago I became seriously annoyed. okay, more 'pissed off' than 'annoyed', actually. to be honest I had trouble sleeping because I was so angry and to this moment I'm basically oozing aggression. don't worry, I think that the reason for it will dissipate during the day and I'll be okay again, but for now I'm scaring off the leaflet people in the streets - they retreat when they see me :P.
anyway, that's not the point of this entry.
the point is, that with some surprise I noticed that when I'm VERY pissed off, I turn to English completely and have trouble switching to Polish. I rant in my head in English and I want to scream in English and so on. I literally have to force myself to use Polish! it's... weird.
*confused*