My Christmas and it's process!!!
So today is the official first day of my winter break. I have decided that this year because I am completely broke every gift I give will be made by hand by me. I have also decided that it would be fun to keep a diary of my process on said gifts. I am however contemplating the fact that it may leave me open to uh some exposure, and people will know what it is I'm going to be giving them.....this is indeed a problem that I must overcome. However, I don't foresee any way to stop people from being able to notice what is I am making for them soo my first thought is that I will keep my entries private until further notice :P once a gift is done people will be able to delight and how it is I suffered to make it come to fruition. For me it is a way to get rid of some stress and frustration that will surely come from making said gifts.....because the entire time I will worry about whether people like them or not >_> Anyway these are my thoughts for now on that anyway.....because today I had an interesting epiphany while watching Confessions of a Shopaholic. I am a shopaholic of sorts......I mean....well...at this very moment it would kinda hard to be one considering my financial situation, yet somehow my mother finds a way to put away a bit here and there, next thing I know I find myself wearing a new jacket or hiding a new pair of boots in my closet >_> this really can't be all that good if I have to worry about paying tuition, which is around $3500 btw....I went to the mall today just to look around and realized that I cannot walk into a store without not wanting anything....well its not completely true.....the last couple of times I had been in forever 21 nothing really seemed all that nice....but now they have this totally adorable cute line of clothes that is rather steamy.....and I am currently debating on splurging on a really cute jacket they have!!! You see the way I'm talking?!?!? Soo not healthy, normal people don't think like this I think.....I know most of you are all like so what? you want a jacket that's not a sin....the problem is I've got a bout 30 different jackets in my closet most of which I do not wear!! That is a problem....also boots, I've got about 6 or 7 pairs I only wear half, but in total when it comes to shoes I'm pretty sure I have about 20 pairs of shoes or more and I only ever wear my old chucks and my docs....what is wrong with me????? It's hard to avoid buying things, but I think that having fallen on hard times I've become better at it. I'm trying as we speak to convince myself that I do not need this new jacket as cute as it is....this money should be saved for books.....yes...lovely books.....I NEEDS THEM!!! I mean.....uhm....as most of you know this too is a problem of mine I buy books like there is no tomorrow. Zoe and her long line of relatives who are seamstresses may be trying to save the world by buying every kind of fabric available to them, but I am doing my part to keep my children, who will surely grow up in a post apocalyptic world without libraries, safe and provide them with the best access to books they possibly can have.....or maybe I just love to carry and have tons of books I'm not quite sure which....The point is, I gotta get my priorities straight, and really be more concerned about paying for school....and making other people happy besides myself....