love really can suck but i wish it didnt... and be ready for some rambling
i just dont know what to do.. you say you love me.. and then you just dont respond at all some times.... i say i trust you.. but you say you dont trust yourself... how is that supposed to make me feel.... your 500+ miles away.. all i can give you right now is my love and my trust.. but what can i do if i dont get them back in return... nothing.. theres nothing i can do and thats what bothers me sooooo much....your so worried about what everyone will think... i really think your one of those ppl.... you may say you love me and it doesnt matter.. but i still think your the main person who needs to be convinced that its okay... that its okay to love another girl... its not gonna be the end of the world i promise... yea some ppl dont like it, but some ppl dont like ketchup... they get over it.... you love who you love... most of the time you dont get the option of choosing.. it just happens... hits you like a truck and you stuck with it.. not that its a bad thing....
all i can say is i love you so much.. and i know you say you cant be hurt again, so maybe it owuld just be best if we edn it now.. it wont hurt as much if we end it now then if we end it later, but you have to think... ive been hurt.. i dont want to be hurt again either... and who says this is going to end....you said it yourself... im the first person youve told that you could actually see spending the rest of your life with... if your willing to say that and mean it.. then why are you so scared.... why wont you say you love me back... you say that maybe we say it too much... well i say it bc i mean it... if i dont say it thats one less time that i can say it and really mean it.... if you dont mean it thats fine, but that also means that the times you do say it you dont mean it as well.... i just dont know what to say... i love you.... i dont know how else to say it... i wish i could be with you every day... but thats not an option right now, but maybe at some pt..but before that happens your gonna have to stop trying to please everyone aorund you and just worry about yourself... what are they going to do about it really... you control you... others are just there to push you along the way. if they really have a problem with it then do you really need them in your lives?... thats all i can say
i miss you so much.. and you say you understand, but i just dont think you do
all i can say is i love you so much.. and i know you say you cant be hurt again, so maybe it owuld just be best if we edn it now.. it wont hurt as much if we end it now then if we end it later, but you have to think... ive been hurt.. i dont want to be hurt again either... and who says this is going to end....you said it yourself... im the first person youve told that you could actually see spending the rest of your life with... if your willing to say that and mean it.. then why are you so scared.... why wont you say you love me back... you say that maybe we say it too much... well i say it bc i mean it... if i dont say it thats one less time that i can say it and really mean it.... if you dont mean it thats fine, but that also means that the times you do say it you dont mean it as well.... i just dont know what to say... i love you.... i dont know how else to say it... i wish i could be with you every day... but thats not an option right now, but maybe at some pt..but before that happens your gonna have to stop trying to please everyone aorund you and just worry about yourself... what are they going to do about it really... you control you... others are just there to push you along the way. if they really have a problem with it then do you really need them in your lives?... thats all i can say
i miss you so much.. and you say you understand, but i just dont think you do