almost at the end...and i just cant hold it in any longer
so i just got back from breakfast for a buck, and just as i was leaving, it all hit me. this year is practically over. it all hit me when ashley and my big sis AK were telling me good bye for the night and that they love me. we were also talking about the fact that we need to get together before i leave on tuesday. our last time together. and it just hit me. and as AK hugged me and said i love you, i just couldnt respond. my eyes started filling up, and i just couldnt say anything bc i would have just let it all out, and i didnt want to. not there. i cant believe all the relationships that i have made this year. and also some that i have lost and got back, and then some that i have just lost all together.
i think mostly its just the fact that i will not be able to see everyone for 3 months, and i wont be able to call whenever i want. i will be secluded. also there are some ppl that i just wont see anymore. the PKs are leaving, and though i am not really that close to that many of them, the ones that i am close to, i am going to miss greatly. its just going to be so weird next year without all of you. you are all so special and so many of you have been there for me when i just needed someone to sit and talk to. and i know you all will not just be disappearing off the face of the earth, and that i will see and speak to you all again at some point, but it will still not be the same. wont be the same where i can just run into you and talk, or call and go hang out for hours at steak and shake. it just wont be the same. and next year, ill be getting lil sisters, and that also scares me. everything just seems to be going so fast, and i just want it all to stop and i want to be able to spend more time with everyone before we all go our separate ways this summer.
then, there are just so many ppl leaving next year and not coming back. they wont be coming back to visit like i know the pks will be. there are some, that i have a feeling, that after tuesday when i leave, i will just never see again. yea sure we'll prob still talk online or through facebook, and there will always be those random phone calls that will last for hours, but it just wont be the same.
also, i am going to be writing letters this summer, so if you want me to keep in touch with you i need your address. please comment with your address, and i will be sure to send you mail bc this summer is going to be hard. new place, new people, and no cell phone service.
if you didnt read the above hopefully you'll read this
COMMENT WITH YOUR ADDRESS SO I CAN SEND YOU MAIL THIS SUMMER, AND KEEP IN TOUCH WITH EVERYONE
so this post was for all of those ppl who will be leaving: AK, ashley, maddie, whampler, amber, megan, marissa, ellie, suzzi, ashley, christine, kim, jamie, lainey, rosie, tenarka, dani, ashliegh, manira, lindsay, nicole, honara'...
good luck to all of you in where ever you are going and in whatever you are pursueing