yesterday
Well it's offical, my grandmother died yesterday. I've always said I've had 3 grandmothers. This was my great grandmother, yet I was really close to her. I remember when I was little she had this white candy bowl and me, having the sweet tooth that I do would always be in the candy bowl, and get in trouble because there would never be anything left when Gigi would go and get one of those fredrick rocheere expensive chocolate bawls that she liked so much. I would eat them all. Now, the bowl, is right in front of me. I think I would be ok if my grandmother wasn't an artist and painted all the portraits that fill up our whole house...
No matter yesterday, I spent the entire day by her death bed. Before I had my panic attack I touched her head and told her I loved her. She pretty much was unresponsive then and basically all she was doing was breathing on her on. But she mouthed "I love you too" back to me I was the only person she responded to yesterday.. And after that I had a panic attack and being the coward that I am, I left. I couldn't take it.. I don't want to remember her like that. I want to remember her the way that she was, elegant, blunt, funny, and strong.
Her funeral is Wednesday, I know death is a part of life. But it's pretty hard to face.
No matter yesterday, I spent the entire day by her death bed. Before I had my panic attack I touched her head and told her I loved her. She pretty much was unresponsive then and basically all she was doing was breathing on her on. But she mouthed "I love you too" back to me I was the only person she responded to yesterday.. And after that I had a panic attack and being the coward that I am, I left. I couldn't take it.. I don't want to remember her like that. I want to remember her the way that she was, elegant, blunt, funny, and strong.
Her funeral is Wednesday, I know death is a part of life. But it's pretty hard to face.