May 03, 2012 19:53
Jordin and I have been talking about it and about 10 days ago we made the decision. I'm giving up the apartment in California and going back to living full time in Seattle.
This experiment has been very good for me physically; I always feel better physically in CA, but emotionally not so good. I don't like being gone from my home base so much; I miss Jordin & the cats. I don't feel as if I'm at home anywhere, and I've been paralyzed the last 6-8 months trying to make this work/decide what to do. I haven't been able to write or make jewelry or do much of anything.
It's also been bad for my social life, such as it is. It's been hard to keep up with people, and whenever something interesting is happening, I'm almost always in the wrong place. So.
What I will be doing is spending a week per month during the worst months in Seattle (Nov-Feb) someplace warm and sunny. I think this will be enough to keep the serotonin production up and still keep me from feeling like I'm not at home. I can do a lot of that for what I've been spending on the apartment and going back & forth.
Here's hoping it breaks the paralysis and I can write regularly again!