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i'm having a real shitty time here.
He asked me " are you ever going to find happiness or contentment"? let just get right to the fucking point now, shall we? My first thought was I better fucking find it soon i'm tired of wasting my time if it's never going to come. Then I thought what if i dont ever find contentment. what if he gets tired of waiting for me to like life too. what if i'm destroying my life slowly but surely and i dont know how to stop it. what the fuck happens when i'm about to die and realize i didnt enjoy any of it. what then?
i just dont know what to fucking do. i'm puhing everyone away and im lonely. i'm tired of this crap.
He asked me " are you ever going to find happiness or contentment"? let just get right to the fucking point now, shall we? My first thought was I better fucking find it soon i'm tired of wasting my time if it's never going to come. Then I thought what if i dont ever find contentment. what if he gets tired of waiting for me to like life too. what if i'm destroying my life slowly but surely and i dont know how to stop it. what the fuck happens when i'm about to die and realize i didnt enjoy any of it. what then?
i just dont know what to fucking do. i'm puhing everyone away and im lonely. i'm tired of this crap.