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tomorrow cannot come too soon.
well, that's not true. if today was tomorrow right now i'd be really unhappy because i'd probably do really poorly on that lab midterm, but...
other than that...
and i'm going to have to drive for two hours all by myself and all anxious and nervous and terrified that something will go wrong...
anyway... so...
my tummy hurts. i keep waking up too early. like 30 minutes early. every day. i think i prefer it that way, slightly anxious, looking at the clock, seeing i have more time. but i think it does disrupt my proper sleep time.
yesterday i was happy. we'll see about today.
see you tomorrow.
::edit::
the waking up and looking at the clock anxiety has nothing to do with visits from people i love. i do prefer my life that way. you can't be anxious without being excited, so a very little pinch of anxiety can go a long way. it makes my days feel more productive, having that extra thirty minutes of procrastination in the morning. get that out of the way early.
on the other hand, the anxiety about this weekend is not controlling my life. why? because i have gone into some kind of numb denial and do not really believe it will actually happen. self preservation, right? because every time i think about it i almost piss myself. this isn't a good thing since i've been in public all day. eh, what can you do?
well, that's not true. if today was tomorrow right now i'd be really unhappy because i'd probably do really poorly on that lab midterm, but...
other than that...
and i'm going to have to drive for two hours all by myself and all anxious and nervous and terrified that something will go wrong...
anyway... so...
my tummy hurts. i keep waking up too early. like 30 minutes early. every day. i think i prefer it that way, slightly anxious, looking at the clock, seeing i have more time. but i think it does disrupt my proper sleep time.
yesterday i was happy. we'll see about today.
see you tomorrow.
::edit::
the waking up and looking at the clock anxiety has nothing to do with visits from people i love. i do prefer my life that way. you can't be anxious without being excited, so a very little pinch of anxiety can go a long way. it makes my days feel more productive, having that extra thirty minutes of procrastination in the morning. get that out of the way early.
on the other hand, the anxiety about this weekend is not controlling my life. why? because i have gone into some kind of numb denial and do not really believe it will actually happen. self preservation, right? because every time i think about it i almost piss myself. this isn't a good thing since i've been in public all day. eh, what can you do?