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heres another picture for you. enjoy.
honestly if you have a problem with what i put in here
or what i do then why do you even take the time to read it?
the comment wasnt much said but it pisses me off
yes, i put a lot of pictures of myself on here
so what? its my damn livejournal i put what i want on here
and if you have one you can put whatever the hell you want on yours.
my answer is simply DONT read it. i dont want fuckers like you in my lj.
+ and i would like to add, i love kyle for writing that comment lol made my day lol
anonymous fucker: omg u take way to many pics of ur self
maryforce: i probably do, but guess what?!
its my livejournal and i put what i want in it
if it bothers you that bad dont read it.
and your real cool you can say shit hiding
behind an anonymous comment
but you would never have the guts to say it to my face.
why dont you consider killing yourself?
you would be doing everyone a favor.
jonnywishbone: Hi, my name is Kyle and i would just like 2 admit
that i am a mary-a-holic and i cant get enuff of her,
i kno that people say having a habit is a bad thing
but i think when it comes 2 mary its amazing
bcuz she just makes everything so much better
and i think that the more pictures she takes of herself,
the better off the whole world is i mean what more could
anyone ask 4 than a beautiful girl postin hott pictures of herself 4 everyone 2 c?
theres nothing and i think if u dont like it, u might just want 2 turn gay now
bcuz mary force is superwoman and she is very hott thank u all 4 ur time
i put a story thing i wrote behind the cut also.
just a long thing i wrote when i couldnt sleep the other night
dont know why i choose to write about that, just think about crap i guess
I will Always remeber those famous final words
-"are you sure your okay with this? i dont want you to do anything youll regret later"
-"Ive never regreted anything ive done in my life, and this isnt goin to change that."
Oh how Bold i sounded, on the contray i could feel my insides rattle, my body tense.
The temptation of crossing fates was over powering
everything i expected to worry about, disapeared
it was us two. thought of no-one, forgot my place in this world. lost all meaning of time
I was too caught up. drunk off words, high off feelings.
This moment was all i needed.
After that day, i hardly spent a moment without him.
our car rides to no where. our talks about nothing.
yet if fullfilled me so much, i couldnt get enough.
My phone would ring before my foot touched the porch
and i would look back to his car and smile.
He treated me like no one had before
the world was mine, and i had all the talent and potenital one could posses
My family loved him, The first guy my brother had ever liked.
His mom hated me though, not so much me, as the idea of me
She would refuse to meet me and would yell at him everytime i was with him
Over Zelus with the idea that he could ever consider dating anyone else but "her"
In his mothers eyes this girl was perfect for him, and i was just an interuption
he told me the lies that he had no more feelings for her.
i knew the truth but i constantly denided it to myself.
After our few weeks of bliss i discovered his ever changing moods
overly happy, almost fakenly zelus and then to where he was
overly catty to me and would snap or just not talk to me at all
and we would just end up bickering. i was still so lost in him
I tryed so hard for things to stay the same.
i had exculded myself, so much to be with him, what friends did i have left?
not even understanding my family any longer.
He wasnt the person he use to be to me.
Never complimentative or caring anymore, i felt like i meant nothing
and being with me had just become a routine.
He was constantly hanging out with "her"
and would lie to me about it. i didnt mind that he did
just the fact that why is he lying if i dont care?
if i would call him out on that he would get officive and mean to me
one day my mom had saw them together and
i asked about his day and he lied to me and told me
that he had gone to work then did nothing else that day.
i caught him up on his lie, but he wouldnt tell me how he felt about her
and would avoid it at every cut and be real fake sweety sweety to me
i felt stuck, whatever we had felt like pretend.
his calls became less frequent and when they did i would
hassate to answer the phone. i always felt bad about myself after i talked to him
The ciggaretes beame staler and the ashes burnt holes.
One day he called me up and asked me out on a date
we had planed weeks beforehand. That last date was cold and somber
I dared not touch him, like he had a disease or sumthing.
though that day things seemed normal at times but things had changed
when we decided to call it a day. we walked out to the parking lot
he went for my hand and i turned away.
as we reached that car, he opened his door and sat in the drivers seat
i was dumbfounded. This was the first time he had ever
ler me open my own car door. Stupid i know. i didnt like it
that much anyways but him not doing that just told me he felt the same way i did
it was a long quite car ride home, as we pulled into my driveway
i didnt dare look at him and i mummured "goodbye"
no ill call you later, No kiss, No hug. i shyed away at his touch and
opened the car door to start the long dark walk up the drive-way.
shed no tears that night or for a couple nights afterwards.
a few nights after that, my parents had told me that he
was driving around with "her" and did duster at the wheel
and passed out and wrapped his car around a telephone pole
they werent injuryed from the accident thank god.
but i hated him for that, not even a week till he was off
probation and he does something stupid like that.
my parents refused to let me see him after that
he began calling again about a month or so later
i hated talking to him, he would try and convince me to hang out with him
and i didnt want to do anything of the sort
i played up on the idea of my parents not wanting me to see him
but really i couldnt go though that again, i couldnt get hurt like that again.
heres more pictures of myself for your collection
have fun fuckers. <3
Had a fun day, the other day, hung out with my dog
it was all hugs and kisses
then he attacked my head
so i of coarse had to fight back
it was a visious brawl (i dont think he knew about the brawl tho?)
then i had to final take a breather before, i stabbed somebody (ha jk)
i thought the reflection looked cool and i danced around for a bit
it was a long hard day.
i made this the other night when i was grounded and bored,
just printed off a whole bunch of randomass pictures
and im goin to hang it in my room as soon as i redo it (clean it)
same night made a veggie platter
and dinner and a fruit dish
i was miss effient matha stewart. lol
but anyways onto things that matter
i just finished my last Seg. 2 test yesterday
i have to schedule my road test yet but im planing on
getting my lincense on my B-day, 10 more days, im sooo excited
plus im going to the maroon 5 concert next friday
with joelley, laura and erin, should be a blast
just got back from the mall with tiffany
got a new shirt from hollister
thats pretty much it and a bag of chips
love you.
♥