"I mean, what's the point in being alive if you don't have a dick?"
Jessica invited Joe to come with us to go see the Walls show tomorrow night. Actually, she asked ME if I minded - but what can I say to that? I don't necessarily WANT him to go, but there's no way for me to say that without looking like a complete fucking asshole. I mean she BARELY even likes music like that anyway, and now Joe's coming so it'll be seriously awkward. I can tell right now, they're going to get attached at the ass again, and I'm going to lose her to him. He doesn't even fucking deserve her - he dumped her, fucked some other girl the next day and then called to tell her about it. That's even more fucked up than what Jess did to me. She wanted me to hate him with her, and now that SHE decides he's OK, I have to think so too? Nope, that's not the way it works. He dicked her, and when people do anything to hurt my friends, I hold grudges forever. He's going to come along tomorrow, and she'll be all up in his ass and she'll ignore me, when this was originally supposed to be a girls' trip - Chad and Jer can come because they're not our significant others. This was supposed to be a no-boyfriends trip, mainly. Even when Jess and I got back together for a few days, I told him he couldn't come because it was something I wanted to do alone with my friends. Christ, oh well... I don't have to be nice to him, and I'll tell him that if he hurts her I will fucking kill him.
So I love looking at other people's online journals while I'm doing my e-bay stuff. It makes me feel like a voyeur and it's a guilty pleasure of mine. I like the idea of an online diary, though, because if I can convince myself that someone somewhere reads it, I can make myself keep up with it. (Plus, it's entertaining when I have to fuck with ebay stuff online for long periods of time.) It's funny when you haven't even met a person and you know their inner-most fucking thoughts. There's this girl on MySpace that's all in love with Robbie and thinks that he didn't mean to hit her - wow. I got to be pretty damn close with him during the 2 years that Jess and I were together, and he's NEVER respected ANYONE he's dated - not even Sarah, and she came the closest. Plus, we talked on the phone the day after that incident and he was giggling to me like a little girl about how amused he was that he had hit this girl. He really, truly, honestly does not give a shit about girls. It's all a joke to him. He said the only people he respected in the world were Jess and me (and I'm sure I'm off THAT list now). Don't get me wrong, I love Robbie, and we've always been really cool with each other (except directly after this Jess thing). I think he's fun and really generous and not always as pissed off as he seems - I just think that someone should clue this girl in, because she doesn't deserve it. She needs to move on and not try to tame this one because it just won't happen. No girl deserves to be treated that way, no matter what. It hurts like fucking hell to realize that someone doesn't give a shit about you (believe me, I learned that just a few days ago), but it makes it a hell of a lot easier to move the fuck on.
Of course I'm writing in this thing because I'm putting off writing a paper, but I should really get started on it because it's due on Wednesday and tomorrow is the show. Wait... FIRST get some food, THEN start the paper. God I love eating. I also love kissing new people - I should really start working on finding more.
Love, Mary Claire
So I love looking at other people's online journals while I'm doing my e-bay stuff. It makes me feel like a voyeur and it's a guilty pleasure of mine. I like the idea of an online diary, though, because if I can convince myself that someone somewhere reads it, I can make myself keep up with it. (Plus, it's entertaining when I have to fuck with ebay stuff online for long periods of time.) It's funny when you haven't even met a person and you know their inner-most fucking thoughts. There's this girl on MySpace that's all in love with Robbie and thinks that he didn't mean to hit her - wow. I got to be pretty damn close with him during the 2 years that Jess and I were together, and he's NEVER respected ANYONE he's dated - not even Sarah, and she came the closest. Plus, we talked on the phone the day after that incident and he was giggling to me like a little girl about how amused he was that he had hit this girl. He really, truly, honestly does not give a shit about girls. It's all a joke to him. He said the only people he respected in the world were Jess and me (and I'm sure I'm off THAT list now). Don't get me wrong, I love Robbie, and we've always been really cool with each other (except directly after this Jess thing). I think he's fun and really generous and not always as pissed off as he seems - I just think that someone should clue this girl in, because she doesn't deserve it. She needs to move on and not try to tame this one because it just won't happen. No girl deserves to be treated that way, no matter what. It hurts like fucking hell to realize that someone doesn't give a shit about you (believe me, I learned that just a few days ago), but it makes it a hell of a lot easier to move the fuck on.
Of course I'm writing in this thing because I'm putting off writing a paper, but I should really get started on it because it's due on Wednesday and tomorrow is the show. Wait... FIRST get some food, THEN start the paper. God I love eating. I also love kissing new people - I should really start working on finding more.
Love, Mary Claire