Nope! Still not dead... Just MIA
Jesus where to begin... I am now living in harrisonburg VA I work across the street from JMU at the local hospital (address upon request)
I am living alone with me and the face (samson the dog)
I am seeing someone, have been with him since march, he makes me smile and laugh most of the time
ANdrew and i still talk and see each other. things are going very well with our seperation. I hope he's happy, I know i am and i would hate to think my partner in crime (and other thing *WEG*) would be unhappy.
Moving on to another phase of my life has not been easy, somenights i want to cry, others i want to scream, and still others i am content to be on my own for the first time in my life. I have moments of loneliness, and others of "WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING" but the peace i have found comes not to long after i cry out thoes emotions. I do miss him at times. I miss knowing someone is just upstairs if i need them. I miss him taking out the trash I hate taking out the trash.
Most of all i miss the companionship that having a husband was. though it all i could yell scream cry what ever and he was there.
i wouldnt be human if i said I didnt love and miss him, ANdrew was such an important part of my life for so long that i cant imagine my life with out him thats why the efforts i am making to keep him in my life as my friend are so important to me. 14 years of having someone is not something i am willing to give up on. SO i work hard and try (it doesnt always work but usually it does) not to et my selfdragged into the self indulgent screaming matches ex's seem to have. i take a breath and remember, i married him for a reason, even if for diffrent reasons I cannot stay with him.
He is and was my best friend, too bad we made such a shitty married couple
I am living alone with me and the face (samson the dog)
I am seeing someone, have been with him since march, he makes me smile and laugh most of the time
ANdrew and i still talk and see each other. things are going very well with our seperation. I hope he's happy, I know i am and i would hate to think my partner in crime (and other thing *WEG*) would be unhappy.
Moving on to another phase of my life has not been easy, somenights i want to cry, others i want to scream, and still others i am content to be on my own for the first time in my life. I have moments of loneliness, and others of "WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING" but the peace i have found comes not to long after i cry out thoes emotions. I do miss him at times. I miss knowing someone is just upstairs if i need them. I miss him taking out the trash I hate taking out the trash.
Most of all i miss the companionship that having a husband was. though it all i could yell scream cry what ever and he was there.
i wouldnt be human if i said I didnt love and miss him, ANdrew was such an important part of my life for so long that i cant imagine my life with out him thats why the efforts i am making to keep him in my life as my friend are so important to me. 14 years of having someone is not something i am willing to give up on. SO i work hard and try (it doesnt always work but usually it does) not to et my selfdragged into the self indulgent screaming matches ex's seem to have. i take a breath and remember, i married him for a reason, even if for diffrent reasons I cannot stay with him.
He is and was my best friend, too bad we made such a shitty married couple