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Okay so I know I havent updated in like a month and a half. uhm. Sean's gone :( and that sucks. I went out with Mikey Zanelli for a little while but I realized I felt way too much way too soon and shit was really i dont know, real and that scared the shit out of me because i COULD spend the rest of my life with him and I'm just almost 15 and I gotta live it up and i dont know. I'm a "hopeless romantic" but I think I'm afraid of commitment too. And knowing I love someone as soon as I did. I don't know that was just way too real for me. So yeah.. and I wasn't supposed to go out with him cause my parents hated that he's almost 18 and I never saw him. All little things add up I guess. Plus I like to play the field. Hm and now I'm grounded for a while and school is gunna suck. I need to make friends who smoke. I need to talk to my friends who smoke. I'm bored off my ass and uhmmm idk