alone and crying

[marxdarx]

Not in a good place. Mentally.

I'm continuously being put into the middle of things in my family.
I hate hiding things from other members of the family.

The past keeps getting into my head.

Dammit, I just want a job so I can get the hell out of here. Out of this damn house, out of this damn state.

I struggle, I do my very best and it gets me nowhere. I feel so helpless.

I don't want to cry anymore.
I don't want to hurt anymore.

I just want love without the baggage and headgames. No fights, no tragedy.

All in all, an emotional day.

I need to hold her badly. I feel so alone.