ugh..
i just dont know about life so much right now. i had a panic attack the other afternoon and it just seemed like life was getting the best of me and i wasnt going to make it..
it seems like i have lost my best guy and girl friend here at HPU since we all came back from spring break. over spring break i lost some of my closest friends i had at home. i dont have a best friend at home anymore it seems.. its like no matter what i do i fuck up. i love someone so much and i know that i fucked that relationship up even though im trying my best to get it back... but then again its like no matter what i do, its not good enough. my parents are having health problems.. both of them this time. my dad might need surgery, my mom isnt doing much better with her health and now she is having to deal with different shit at school that she doesnt deserve... UGH!! other stuff here at high point isnt going much better, not only with classes and friends just.. everything... i just cant wait til the summer... hopefully with the sunshine things will get better.. til then i have carbon leaf to calm my nerves... hopefully a break down and panic attack wont happen again for a loooooooong time. peace out..
it seems like i have lost my best guy and girl friend here at HPU since we all came back from spring break. over spring break i lost some of my closest friends i had at home. i dont have a best friend at home anymore it seems.. its like no matter what i do i fuck up. i love someone so much and i know that i fucked that relationship up even though im trying my best to get it back... but then again its like no matter what i do, its not good enough. my parents are having health problems.. both of them this time. my dad might need surgery, my mom isnt doing much better with her health and now she is having to deal with different shit at school that she doesnt deserve... UGH!! other stuff here at high point isnt going much better, not only with classes and friends just.. everything... i just cant wait til the summer... hopefully with the sunshine things will get better.. til then i have carbon leaf to calm my nerves... hopefully a break down and panic attack wont happen again for a loooooooong time. peace out..