Final Post
Ashley,
I know at some point you are going to read my journal. I know you still care about me and you will find it in your heart at some point. Then you will want to find out what is going on with me and what is happening in my life. However, this is my final post, you won't be able to find that out here. There are some things that I would like to get off my chest before I go. I have noticed myself growing in the past few days. I admit that I went a little crazy the other day, but, if you had seen what I had, I think you would have too. You were the only one that I could turn to. The only person that I knew of at the time that knew anything of it. Now I know of this Prairie Zen Center. I believe they will help me soon enough. I already have a better understanding from my readings.
Secondly, I want you to realize what this oath is to me. I will not be with anyone until May 1st of 2005 (a year and a day from the oath). I pledged an oath to you, and I am a loyal person. If you understand the oath at all, you will realize that it is not the ring that makes up the oath, it is the words said and the oath itself. I have held up my end, I have been trying to fix things. I will give you the opportunity at any time in that amount of time to try to fix things between us. If you ever have the chance and walk past my truck, you will notice that the ring is hanging from my review to remind me of my oath to you. I cannot tell you that things will work out if you try to fix things. You know the path that I have chosen now, You seem to be pretty knowledgeable about spirituality. So you will understand what is changing with me.
Even if you don't want to have things fixed, I also want you to know that there are some things that should be worked on to better yourself. I am not saying that you are a horrible person. All I am doing is trying to make you double check your fly before you walk out the door. I think you should look at yourself from the inside. I don't think you know who you are or what you want. A lot of what I have heard in the last few weeks from you has not been you talking. It has been everyone else telling you what to say, what to do. Please don't get mad if I am wrong. I apologize for that. I just think it may be wise to sit back and evaluate your decisions and what caused you to make them. There is a bit of maturity to be gained from all this I think. I hope that you will realize the level of immaturity you have been acting on.
I want you to realize this is not me begging to get you back. This is me fulfilling my oath that I made to you. I have other things to focus on now, I am being a loyal person and doing what I feel is right.
If you ever want to call me, you know my number and you know my friends. It is easy to get ahold of me.
I will love always and forever
Todd
Good-bye to everyone, except the people on my next journal.
I know at some point you are going to read my journal. I know you still care about me and you will find it in your heart at some point. Then you will want to find out what is going on with me and what is happening in my life. However, this is my final post, you won't be able to find that out here. There are some things that I would like to get off my chest before I go. I have noticed myself growing in the past few days. I admit that I went a little crazy the other day, but, if you had seen what I had, I think you would have too. You were the only one that I could turn to. The only person that I knew of at the time that knew anything of it. Now I know of this Prairie Zen Center. I believe they will help me soon enough. I already have a better understanding from my readings.
Secondly, I want you to realize what this oath is to me. I will not be with anyone until May 1st of 2005 (a year and a day from the oath). I pledged an oath to you, and I am a loyal person. If you understand the oath at all, you will realize that it is not the ring that makes up the oath, it is the words said and the oath itself. I have held up my end, I have been trying to fix things. I will give you the opportunity at any time in that amount of time to try to fix things between us. If you ever have the chance and walk past my truck, you will notice that the ring is hanging from my review to remind me of my oath to you. I cannot tell you that things will work out if you try to fix things. You know the path that I have chosen now, You seem to be pretty knowledgeable about spirituality. So you will understand what is changing with me.
Even if you don't want to have things fixed, I also want you to know that there are some things that should be worked on to better yourself. I am not saying that you are a horrible person. All I am doing is trying to make you double check your fly before you walk out the door. I think you should look at yourself from the inside. I don't think you know who you are or what you want. A lot of what I have heard in the last few weeks from you has not been you talking. It has been everyone else telling you what to say, what to do. Please don't get mad if I am wrong. I apologize for that. I just think it may be wise to sit back and evaluate your decisions and what caused you to make them. There is a bit of maturity to be gained from all this I think. I hope that you will realize the level of immaturity you have been acting on.
I want you to realize this is not me begging to get you back. This is me fulfilling my oath that I made to you. I have other things to focus on now, I am being a loyal person and doing what I feel is right.
If you ever want to call me, you know my number and you know my friends. It is easy to get ahold of me.
I will love always and forever
Todd
Good-bye to everyone, except the people on my next journal.