So here we are..
I am sleep deprived. I am sad beyond reason. I don't know how I am not curled into a ball in the corner somewhere. But somehow, I sit here, with no emotions left to feel.
My grandfather is dying. He has been dying all week. I am more sad about the pain he is in, than about losing him. I know that he will be more than wonderful once he does pass. But that does not change how sad we all are right now.
It is probably the most terrible feeling, to watch someone you love so much, hurt so much. He is weaker today than ever. The only thing we can do is try to make him comfortable, and love him deeply as we do.
People who don't know him, don't understand why he refuses medication, or to even see a doctor. He has his beliefs about his own body, and so he wants to die at home. Who are we to not grant that for him? after all he has given us, after the love he has shown us all time and time again, we will do what he asks.
I am sad today, and I am tired. but I wouldn't trade the moments I have with him for anything else in the world.
I'm going back out there to his house again. I just took a little break to collect my thoughts, and to check on you guys. Love you all.
My grandfather is dying. He has been dying all week. I am more sad about the pain he is in, than about losing him. I know that he will be more than wonderful once he does pass. But that does not change how sad we all are right now.
It is probably the most terrible feeling, to watch someone you love so much, hurt so much. He is weaker today than ever. The only thing we can do is try to make him comfortable, and love him deeply as we do.
People who don't know him, don't understand why he refuses medication, or to even see a doctor. He has his beliefs about his own body, and so he wants to die at home. Who are we to not grant that for him? after all he has given us, after the love he has shown us all time and time again, we will do what he asks.
I am sad today, and I am tired. but I wouldn't trade the moments I have with him for anything else in the world.
I'm going back out there to his house again. I just took a little break to collect my thoughts, and to check on you guys. Love you all.