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today is working out sweet. woke up, took a shower, and made some awesome pasta from scratch with chicken and mushroom sauce. talked with my mom. watched sealab 2021, looked at new cars on the internet. i used to have my mind set on a new jeep wrangler or a tacoma but now im looking at VW jetta's. better mileage, im going to be doing alot of driving. got to work at 115, gonna be here till 915, then its richmond to see drugXtest, 1033, hold me back, and stand and fight. hopefully ill crash at trey's place. this will be an awesome show. and i'm off work tommorrow. i might pick up a new bike tommorrow while im in the city. also gonna get tattooed next week. more on that later when i can get to a scanner. going to get to busch gardens soon with ben and ashleigh. giving the recent shittyness my life, things are going great. i have great friends. im paying off my bills, i can be myself and not worry about things that dont matter, and people that dont care. escape from all the indecison feels good. for a long time all i can really remember feeling is trying and trying and trying, doing my best and getting nothing back, not even a smile, from the person that i was trying with. and not waiting for the phone to ring feels really good. not feeling like you dont matter or feeling like your not good enough feels really good. i like this. i hope it will last.