i wash my hands of you

Feb 17, 2005 06:10

Ok this is the most recent update of my daitine life. "that sucks like most"
My friend Joe Tells me about this guy Jimi.
Says that we have a lot in common. That's the good part
The bad part is that he's got a kid and that hes also going though a divorce.
Ok Can't commit but i'm willing to look past all that and got to know jimi.
So i get get out of work one day and i met up with Joe and Jimi.
Jimi and I hit it off.
We hang out and what not.
Weeks go on were talking and hanging out still have not kissed, held hands, nothing.
ok taking it slow. hes been hurt so have i understandable.
BUT on day were at marges a bar across from the village idiot down in grose point.
he tells MY BEST FRIEDS MIRANDA that there is a small conection between teh two of us but is she was not daiting brian he'd be after her and not me.
I'm falling for this guy hard.
who else is willing to fly his kid out here so he can spend time with him.
who else is willing to drive to cal. and stay in a hotel so he can see his son.
not many well guess what i am.
i'm willing to put my life on hold just so i can prove to him i'm not going anywhere and i'm not going to hurt him. when in the long run he's hurting me.
i had to find out that there's no chance for me from miranda.
he wouldn't even kiss me when i was drunk. i asked him to.
then i asked if i was trying to hard
"yeah"
that was it.
when i told him that he had soft lips
he laughed then said thanks.
i took him out for val. day i drove, paied, i was the guy for the evening.
Nothing.
am i that fucking desperate. i'll give up everything for someone who doesn't even like me.
i guess so.
you know what guys don't complain your alone if you have someone that likes you. try it out, you never know. unless your a pathetic loser like me, then its understandable.
i get all the guys that are asswholes (no adfence jay) who have no intrest in miranda (yea me) so no matter what i have to make sure that the guy i like will never go for miranda, or else i can't date them cause then its all about her. don't get me worng i love miranda to death. i'll do anything for her. but we will not date the same guy unless it's been years, and we ok it (brian....hugs). oh well i'm single, please no pitty but a nice date would be nice. guy drive, pays. that would be a dream date for me right now.
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