(no subject)
You know what disturbs me most about watching tv-series, basically any tv-series? The fact that I, as a consumer of moving media (it's late and I can't think of a better phrase), am so disturbingly uncritical. Really. I think stuff is good, and I don't even bother to take it apart even a little, and then I read other people's meta and I feel like there are so many things I should have thought of myself.
It makes me feel stupid, and I don't like feeling stupid. Because I want to be able to think things through, and see them from the queer feminist perspective I have in almost every other aspect of my life (in varying degrees, but still), but when it comes to moving media I just can't. I have no idea where to start.
I haven't been trained in looking at things like how stuff is filmed, angles, colors, everything, affects me as a viewer. I just swallow the fact that it's male gaze without even gagging a bit. And yes, that is disturbing. Because when it comes to written words, or pictures that don't move, or especially music I have no trouble picking it apart, and then putting it back together again, but I just, I can't. And I want to learn.
Also, I'm sort of "blaming" this on finding internet porn at the tender age of thirteen and then becoming something very close to a porn addict. Still am, actually. And hey, where do we find unchecked male gazes? Mainstream porn!
Angry icon is appropriate.
It makes me feel stupid, and I don't like feeling stupid. Because I want to be able to think things through, and see them from the queer feminist perspective I have in almost every other aspect of my life (in varying degrees, but still), but when it comes to moving media I just can't. I have no idea where to start.
I haven't been trained in looking at things like how stuff is filmed, angles, colors, everything, affects me as a viewer. I just swallow the fact that it's male gaze without even gagging a bit. And yes, that is disturbing. Because when it comes to written words, or pictures that don't move, or especially music I have no trouble picking it apart, and then putting it back together again, but I just, I can't. And I want to learn.
Also, I'm sort of "blaming" this on finding internet porn at the tender age of thirteen and then becoming something very close to a porn addict. Still am, actually. And hey, where do we find unchecked male gazes? Mainstream porn!
Angry icon is appropriate.