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my family gets so impatient, uptight, greedy, and annoying around christmas. i can not stand it. like seriously, go mom you gave birth, but what else have you done with your life? and you get to spend all dads money.... no wonder he gets so pissed off all the time. you dont clean, you hardly ever cook, you try and make it seem like you dont spend money, but you do, you spend a lot of it.... and then you complain to dad about how we have no money? well HMMM? wonder what happened? you dont do shit i mean seriously my education is about to be more than yours is. 9 and a half FULL years of school. ive got one more month and thats it. you didnt do anything with your life. you got pregnant with someone who happened to be smart. congradulations. well dont worry i wont let you down. im actually gonna do something with my life. i wont be stuck in this damn town forever.
i guess im getting so mad at myself because i dont have money to spend on other people, or enough atleast. i mean i seriously am on a 20$ a week allowance. and my grandparents wont let me work anymore. idk its just pissing me off. i need a job. i need something to do, somewhere to be. its getting so frustrating how big of a mess this place is. and being here all the time is depressing. i dont have time to do everything around here... but im going to do my part and clean my room.
i guess im getting so mad at myself because i dont have money to spend on other people, or enough atleast. i mean i seriously am on a 20$ a week allowance. and my grandparents wont let me work anymore. idk its just pissing me off. i need a job. i need something to do, somewhere to be. its getting so frustrating how big of a mess this place is. and being here all the time is depressing. i dont have time to do everything around here... but im going to do my part and clean my room.