May 28, 2006 03:17
I feel as if that's what's about to happen.
I'm unhappy with my job. I'm unhappy with my living situation. I'm unhappy that I can't get up to fix either of those two things. I can't wake up in the morning, leaving me to keep this job which sucks. If I could change that around and not go to bed at 3:30 in the morning every night and wake up right before work, the opportunities would be endless. My parents bug the crap out of me for staying out late after work. I don't want to come home and just sleep, especially after hyping up on coffee and cigarettes. I want to express myself to my friends whom I care deeply about. I want to have a good time and not worry that my mom is at home in her bubble of worry over what time I will be getting home. Also in her bubble of worry is she always thinks I'm going to get in some big car accident that will take my life. Reasonable, yes, since she's my mom, but I don't want to hear that every night when I come home at 2 or 3.
Last quote from my mom, 3:23am "Errick, go to bed." See what I mean?
I need to get up early, I don't want to stay up late.
I need to get up early, I don't want to procrastinate.
Thanks for reading. Take it easy, all.